I am forced by the passing of time, the transition of life stages, and the expectations of society to grow up and to behave like a "grown-up" (whatever that would constitute). But here, I would just be a little childish, a little self-centered, a little irresponsible, a little too honest but also a little too pretentious.

24, and still counting.




Kept all my past posts intact because my past was what made me, me. Deleting them doesn't change who I am so I revisit my memories sometimes, to learn and to laugh at my past mistakes.

(Just kidding, I revert some posts to drafts because I'm utterly embarrassed.)


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Designed by: Ahting

Under the wing of Wanzhen recently cause of the upcoming standard chartered marathon 2011 CIP that we're doing together on 1st and 2nd Dec . P: Had to travel to Singapore Sports Council near mountbatten ( circle line ) which ishh kinda far and troublesome to travel even for one as outgoing as me . There's something about nights that makes me feel small when i'm alone . Had to go SSC yesterday after band ( last minute reminded by Wanzhen ) then after the briefing , had to go home , alone . A first for yours truly . Lawls .

Somehow , i cans always find people to pei me . Used to have this special bunch of people who was always there for me , and normally ishh i have to reject their invitation to go out and if i need someone i cans easily find them . Somehow , somewhere along the days , i drift apart from them . From chatting daily and having htht every few days , now i wonder do you even rmb i exist in your life ? Lawls . And once in a while , when someone mention your name(s) , i suddenly rmb once upon a time we were THAT close . From friends to strangers , this ishh reality .

I know a few friends ( please , dont deprive me of that last little privilege to call you my friends ) , who just one day , pop and disappear . And i know even more who gradually just dissolve into nothingness and no longer there . Some , told me i cannot be too dependent on them and have to live on my own . Some , were pursuing their life and forgot me along the way . Lawls . Some , told me it's for the best and shouldn't complicate things . The people i've lost , whom i've never cried for , when it comes to days like yesterday and today , when i cant find anyone to hold to , i truly miss them .

When people leave you like this , you'll either turn hard or turn ... harder . You'll either fear people might leave you agains or you'll get used to it . But for people like me . Well , i kinda never learn from mistakes like these . I still open my heart to whoever that dares walk in . I have friends whom i know almost for 10 years now , so i know it's not a problem with me . *self-reassurance* But i guess it's a real pity , when you got so close , have so much between you and someone else and suddenly one day you realize you've lost it all . And it's something you cans never get back . ... Gosh i really lost a lot of people . Lawls ...

This kind of stuffs , always sounding all too familiar . And sometimes they happen to people you least expect . ... Anyways , speaking of yesterday's band practice . Had combines then sectionals . Feeling quite productive actually but accidentally forgot the timings given by the leaders and caused the whole junior band to be dismissed late . Urgh . Too much on my mind every time we have band . Esp when there's combines . Shall not whine nor elaborate . :) But i just hope that those who judge me in band , know that i put in lots of effort . At least more than you think , and perhaps even more than you .

I really wanted to write and reflect about this thing that has been on my mind for quite a while now .... but it's getting late so ...
*abrupt ending*
P.S. The girl in the photo with me ishh Wanzhen (L) . Similar ( not same uhh ) photo used on When there's no love , ♥
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