I am forced by the passing of time, the transition of life stages, and the expectations of society to grow up and to behave like a "grown-up" (whatever that would constitute). But here, I would just be a little childish, a little self-centered, a little irresponsible, a little too honest but also a little too pretentious.

24, and still counting.




Kept all my past posts intact because my past was what made me, me. Deleting them doesn't change who I am so I revisit my memories sometimes, to learn and to laugh at my past mistakes.

(Just kidding, I revert some posts to drafts because I'm utterly embarrassed.)


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Designed by: Ahting

So apparently , i cant play off beats , i cant sight read , i cant play strokes well and now , i cant play constantly . Giving up ishh not an option . Yet i'm too tired to think about what i should do etc. :/

Today reach home . So , my house ishh like , metal de door locked means no one home , wooden de door locked means someone home . Today come home , first thing open metal door , felt like running away cause apparently my dad's home . School and home , i dont know which ishh more stressful . Really dont wanna come home . Yet at the same time , i dont want to go school at all . Wanted to go BVPS to talk to my counsellor , but din have the time . Credits to all the asshole tests and projects . So instead i imagined what i wanna tell her about . ... Oh boo it sucks . =/

After 3 more tests , 2 ppt presentation , 1 dance , i think i might finally be able to breathe agains . Awww . I'm tired .


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In one of the not so good moods . Agains . D: Old already . Lesser things to be happier about . Haish . Anyways , yesterday went for sound check with RVCB . Memorable experience . I really really love die my perc more than i cans say . Moving truck loads of pretty heavy instru , getting scolded , playing your individual parts that no one else ishh playing sounds like a pretty scary thing when you think about it , but in RVCB Perc'11 , i dont feel as alone as i do normally . I feel like , a part of percussion . ( only that i got real lousy skills . Lawls. )

Yesterday . Other than the feeling judged even though there's no judges thing was nerve-wrecking , it went pretty well i think . I would like to emphasise on the sense of urgency i felt . It was so strong that i didn't realised i was holding my breath and my heart was racing 30 miles (ishh that a lot ? LOL . it's just a figure of speech anyways . ) an hour until i finally heaved a sigh of relief when i head home . Anyways , was discussing why the sky was blue with my perc and i realised the sky ishh not blue cause it's blue ! LOL ! It's blue cause of light and the earth's atmosphere . And i've done a short research :

Light is a kind of energy that can travel through space. Light from the sun or a light bulb looks white, but it is really a mixture of many colors. The sky is filled with air. Air is a mixture of tiny gas molecules and small bits of solid stuff, like dust.
As sunlight goes through the air, it bumps into the molecules and dust. When light hits a gas molecule, it may bounce off in a different direction. Some colors of light, like red and orange, pass straight through the air. But most of the blue light bounces off in all directions. In this way, the blue light gets scattered all around the sky.
When you look up, some of this blue light reaches your eyes from all over the sky. Since you see blue light from everywhere overhead, the sky looks blue.
In space, there is no air. Because there is nothing for the light to bounce off, it just goes straight. None of the light gets scattered, and the "sky" looks dark and black.
Therefore, the sky is not really blue as what we think.

It's silly really . Talking about why the sky ishh blue . It's like asking why ishh the Earth round . But surprise surprise , there's actually such a logical answer to why the sky ishh blue . LOL ! HAHA . Perc ishh so cute . (Y) Year ones coming in , i really dont really know what to expect . Been controlling my temper alot nowadays . Learnt how to go along with those younger , more ignorant than me de juniors , not that i am not ignorant at all , i do have my flaws . D: But , it's really true when they say band makes you grow . I know i did . Like , 0.2 cm ? P:

Anyways , i'm think i'm starting to irritate people by asking ' your point ishh ? ' ' what's the link ' when they talk about really really silly stuffs . LOL . That . Ishh lang arts de fault . Everyday do what Pee-Eee-Eee-Ell , Point-Evidence-Elaboration-Link , then influence me . D: Anyways , sometimes after i talk and laugh and talk and laugh and then after it all i ask myself that two same qns and i realised that a lot of things i say and do ishh pretty pointless and no link . LOL . Many people keep telling me actually i'm bimbo-looking until i open my mouth or start moving . LOL . What's the meaning of that !? D: ! Am i THAT bad ? LOL .

Anyways , now entering the mad tests and projects week . I dont have enough time to do alot of things already actually . ... Why did i go find out on why ishh the sky blue sia . Waste my time . LOL .

` And i want to find a guy who'll be there for me no matter what .
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Yesh it's Valentines Day . Thanks to those many people who was ever so sweet to give me presents when i din even prepare for anyone . Thanks : Shiqi (Y)(Y) , Liting , Minnee , Kellie , Peiling (Y) (P.S. Y for yumyum cause that chocolate thing she gave was really very yummy and ever so sinful :X ) Waiting for something from Brandon and Gladys (L) . HEH !

But in comparison , yesterday was such a more eventful day than today . I know i promise to keep it a secret between us . I'm not gonna tell anyone either . But this ishh the only time i'm gonna tell how i feel and then i will take your cue , take it like nothing happened and forget it all . If you're just pretending you'd buried the memory , geez , you're doing a very good job of it . (: Anyways , it's because you mean something to me then it happened . I never lie about anything . Maybe we've crossed the boundary reality set , but i really never lie . And so , i've learnt a new equation , 心动 = 心痛 .

Anyways , back to Happysad life .
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Dad overseas for the weekend . Should totally grab this once in a lifetime opportunity to go out right ? Everyone freaking busy . :/ Not that i asked everyone , but those people whom i'm like , really comfortable with . Where does that leaves me ? Stuck at home . Agains . I'm so sian , i cans cry . D:

Anyways , school result like shit now . Fail maths , half more mark then cans pass geog , now waiting for confirmation that i failed my language arts paper only . Now never sleep in class already though . Fighting the urge to everyday . Mdm Connie Chan should be proud . LOL . I remembered in year 1 i forever sleeping in her class then always facing outside the class then last year Isabelle told me she always ask what was i looking at outside ( which i apparently din hear cause i was sleeping ever so soundly ) LOL . My most clear-minded memory of year 1 was when i woke up after a nice good sleep and moaning in my head when i have to stand to greet the teacher . Strain my energy . :X

I finally started mugging for year 3 then this ishh what i get . LOL . Really on the verge of giving up . Dont even dare to think about the future anymore . Speaking of future , in about 3 days time the new batch of year 1s are coming into band and i'm like 99.99 % sure that i'm gonna be a failed senior . And i really dont have the energy to try anymore . Brain capacity getting smaller and smaller . Never ever tio pumping de now one week tio twice cause forgot bring this and that . I wonder what else i've forgotten . I hope i forget how to breathe too . Yeah . I'm THAT optimistic about life . ( For now )

Recently spending money too . Very fun . I like shopping . Especially looking at clothes . Fashion very interesting . :) ( Wa . I just realized my english very broken . Eng compre confirm fail le . ) Really wanna go out uh . Haish . Sian . =/

` You have time , but do you have the heart for me ?
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English classes was talking about Popular Cultures , no i not very sure yet what it's really all about . It's something about beauty and self-image etc. de though , i know that much nia . P: Now teaching Social Network and everything . Anyways , during Pop Culture , there was this discussion about advertisements if i'm not wrong , ads , it's effects and impacts . And i realise , yours truly ishh very very "impacted" by ads ! LOL !

Point : Ads made a significant influence on our lives .
Evidence : Students could randomly start singing / reciting commercials anytime anywhere .
Elaboration : London Choco Roll ~~ Xiang cheng you mei wei ~~ Nai xiang qiao ke wei ~~ Xiang cheng kou wei mei ~~ London Choco Roll ~~ ; "Sheng Xiong quan shi wei le ni" ; *more and more* .
Link : Ads improve your musical talent . (Y) !

Finally had some one on one time with Gong(L) and Lai(L) . Haish . Miss them tons . It's just not the same without them uhs . I miss seeing Isabelle flare up and complaining passionately at fifty miles an hour . I miss Gong linking her hands through my hands and her singing at the top of the lungs and me having to shut her up all the time . Sometimes , similar things still happens , but it's just not the same . Gahhh . I din know i love them . /=


Finally met up with you . You were even better than i remembered . You were even better than the you i had in my dreams , better in reality . I know what you're playing at . I really dont want to leave you too . But really , to you , i'm really just gonna be a waste of your time , your youth . You changed , i changed , but , i never stop loving you . ♥
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Guess who’s back ? :D THE MOST AWESOME PERSON IN THE WORLD ! :D no la . LOL . Just reach home from Malaysia . finally decided to blog cause someone asked for my blog link . And I thought , since someone ishh gonna read , I better post a bit . P:

Dedication .
HAPPPYYYY BIRTHDAY BRANDON ! :D
Firstly , Thanks for all the big and small favours you've done for me all this time of me knowing you . I know i do get unreasonable sometimes . :/ You were , still are , a good friend . Always able to make people smile . :D
Second , i shall go reminiscence a bit , and talk about how come i come to know you . I find it hard to believe now but it's through friendster . LOL ! Joke . I cant believe i even remember how to spell friendster ! HAHAH . JK . I went to add you as a friend then cause i thought the guy in the dp looks pretty nice . :x OH ! HOW WRONG I WAS ! T.T HAHA . No la ! You look good . REALLY . P: Your girlfriend ishh lucky . :D
Thirdly , i want to praise how good i am a friend to you ! HAHA . I WISH . :P It's YOUR birthday , thus i shall praise you . P: I'm touched by your efforts many a times . Really . :D Okays . Abrupt ending . The end . :D

Got quite a sum of money during cny , but apparently not enough to last me through the year , not even enough to last me till half the year i think . /= Many things i need to get , more of presents i wanna prepare . Gonna try to give all those people who matters birthday presents this year . :X Veryvery satisfying when you got things prepared for friends and you see them so excited opening the gifts . New joy . :D I like . Veryvery much . For example , the birthday celebration for the three percussionists (L) the day before i left for malaysia . AWESOME . :D LOVE THEM TTM . Nvm if i kana broke , it's worth it . Very worth it . :D


I emo abit . =/ Came back from malaysia , thinking that i will be able to let you go once and for all and for all , keeping in mind all those reasons why i should . But then , when my phone starts having signal , i immediately texted you . Agains . Sometimes , i even find myself irritating , bothering you like this . Lawls . I hope the day will soon come when i can say bye and mean it . Like how you did . Imy .
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