Wake me up when September ends ,
Sunday, September 29, 2013 | 11:04 PM
Because the entire week after promos deserve a post of its own ! The party started on 20th September . *punch fist in the air because i can* And it shall last till 30th September because ... this is my life . :P Anyways on 20th September , I went with 5F'13 to IKEA . I realize now that in all the classes that ive been in , we dont always have a concrete plan until we reach the place itself (and for 4J'12 , it's even better , we only decide when it's the day itself or when we just meet up and are like: "so...where to?") So we had class lunch at IKEA , and like what i've mentioned in my previous post , i've been enjoying de company of my JC people more and more . P: Speaking of which .... Okays let me digress from 20th September (Friday) to 25th September (Wednesday)
A few fateful days before 25th September , Huimin asked me if I wanna go out and shop for clothes with her . And yours truly of course welcome any invitation to let down her hair . (and im really honored to be asked because i think if one wants to shop for clothes , they have to find someone who they are extremely comfortable with) So on that day , i went to school in de morning although it's still an off day for me , cause she still have a last paper to go and it'd be easier for us to just travel from school together (and i also went to school to pass some teachers some things) . Although there was nothing preplanned , we bused off to Orchard straight from school with YunYu .
It was my first time starting a shopping trip at a book store . Hahahha and it rekindled my love for books really . I think i'm gonna save up and invest on books already because my stupidity ishh way below the normal wavelength . :'( So .... Im gonna bring my mother back to that place soon and beg her to help me purchase the books that i've set my eyes on . (i know i said that i will save up for it but i figured it will take ages and by then the books will already be off the shelves and we do not want that happening do we now?) my budget for one shirt ishh 5 bucks , dress ishh 12 bucks , but for book ... i'm willing to pay up to 30 bucks or so . Im telling you its worth it . Anyways i think we spent a good two hours at the book store although we only went because Huimin wanted to get one book hahahha . I blame the power of digression and the attraction of books !
After that we went to different stores to look at clothes (tired YunYu is tired and left us while we were at H&M) but in de end we did not buy a single piece of clothing and went home with accessories and stationary instead . LOL i propose next time we just sit in front of the com and blogshop for a good 4 hours instead ! Confirm more productive and save travelling fare and the time contemplating whether we should pay $20 for a top at H&M when we can get the same piece on TaoBao at maybe $5 only ?! Or maybe even $3 at the flea in *Scape on de weekends . LOL . Anyways , speaking of things i did with Huimin , i also went to her house and we started on building a maze for her 2 hamsters using cardboard and tape with Divya on Thursday (26th Sept) . Hahahha
Because it's so much cheaper this way rather than going to buy a maze . And it's more fun too . Hahahha !! It's like having a childhood agains , do you feel me ?! And have i mentioned how happy i am to find two other friends who live so near me ?! T.T (FYI these are tears of joy) I think it's a very lucky thing to have friends living near you because you cans easily drop by to chill . Moreover , since Divya and Huimin live in the same condo which is 10 mins away from me ... i cans go to their house to swim anytime (... need to lose weight first though....) I've only been to Huimin's house though ... I have yet to crash Divya's house . Hahahaha . Yours truly ishh so jealous of Huimin who has the loveliest family ever . Really truly madly deeply .
I would also love to have siblings who will camwhore and fight over little , nonsensical things with me . I have a younger brother who has recently begin worrying about our parent's relationship and debts and all the burdens that a 13-year-old shouldn't be weighed down by . I would also love to have parents who will bring me overseas every year , who walk into the room and upon seeing videos of me , tease me about how i look instead of nagging about how i should act , what kind of photos i should take and how i am not loving myself because of how i portray myself . I would also love to have grandparents who sit together and read newspaper at the balcony in the evening and despite years and years of being together , still have tons to talk about . Because this is the best love story and an ideal example of how true love does exist and we should not give up on love . I would also love to have pets , to be able to hold the cutest creature in my hands and feel the warmth from them . But most of all , I would love to look forward to going home and rest my tired self at the end of a long day , instead of having to worry about what family drama will happen tonight and whether my parents will take out their frustrations on me today .
So , moving on and back to talking about 20th September (Friday) where i started my celebrations for the end of promos . I went for a class lunch at Ikea and then i went home to prepare to go for my brother's school concert . Haven't went to watch him perform in the longest time ever due to various reasons in the past which my goldfish memory deprives me from remembering . (and since he practice at home, i've countless of "free performance" by him already right? He perform solo for me at home some more LOL hahahha) Anyways , this was also my cousin's last performance in his NUS High Orchestra career so I feel obliged (okays i am just exaggerating) in supporting de concert because I have yet to see him perform too . Sadly
Top Photo: Cousin Chee Guan , Cousin Chee Seng , Me Xin Ying , and Brother Kai Jun (Left to right)
Bottom Photo : Brother Kai Jun , Mummy Jenny and Me Xin Ying (Left to right)
Forgive me for being too lazy to filter this photo . LOL . Anyways , at first i wanted to go with Amy de but she pangseh me last minute then i asked Alicia along but she wasnt feeling well so i made her go home . In de end , i spent the time with my mum and my cousins' family instead . Okays here goes the story . Chee Guan used to be from RVHS but he transferred to NUS High in his third year and his younger brother , Chee Seng also attend NUS High and ishh in his last year . My brother diligently (and i say this proudly) followed in their footstep . I was never mathematically or scientifically inclined so there is not a place for me there :P ... Yeap im fine about it . :P Anyways , as seen from the photo , the males in our family ishh generally much taller than the females . BOO you hormones BOOOOO !
I had a great night at the concert because it was truly a different experience . And mainly because Chee Guan ishh such a funny person to talk to and since he's a senior senior in the school , (for him having graduated years ago and still surprisingly knowing quite a few students in the school ... pedo juniors only this senior senior. hahahha KIDDING) i feel quite safe and not as lost when im tagging alongside him (somehow) . From the experience , i also learnt to appreciate the RV performing arts culture and talent more . ... OMG I JUST SOUND LIKE IM DOING SOME REFLECTION/FEEDBACK FORM BECAUSE OF THAT SENTENCE . Erm .. To sum up , the night was notably enjoyable and i think Orchestra is the best performing arts NUS High has to provide . ... Yes i am bias because my brother and my cousin both comes from Orchestra and i myself ishh a band player . :P Oh did i mention how cool their conductor was ? ... Oh i never ? Okays , i must say , their conductor was cool ! :P
Saturday and Sunday (21st and 22nd Sept) i got to meet "friend" , needless to say , it makes me feel like i'm a very blessed girl . Selfish me ishh selfish and ishh not gonna share the love and wonderful memories me and him had . :p But yours truly cans share with yall the eventful experience i had with Christalle on the following Monday when we decided to have a dress-up date in town (with no preplanned destination ... which means that we end up walking a lot ... i think that day i burnt a lot of calories and i still feel slimmer since then hahahha!) Oh and the photo which i started this post with , ishh a photo that we took on that day (23rd Sept) . Le photo of a tissue paper (which we drew on) in "Tom's Palette Ice Cream" by the way . "Cool" or what ? (PUN INTENDED)
I planned to meet her at about 9am at her bus stop and i ended up going to her place to pick her up because she has yet to wake up . I realize i know how to go to people's house but yours truly can never remember what floor do they live on . So intelligent me went to her block but got to the wrong floor and pressed the wrong bell . Imagine how flustered I was when an uncle I've never met before opened the door and asked me what I want . LOL Tried 3 other floors before i got to the her floor and shouted for her to get up . LOL . I realized something that day . "Good friends will be calling you (to hurry over) on your phone when you are late but best friends will be calling you (to come out right now) on your door step when you are late"
After the eventful morning , we bused to town and upon reaching , we couldn't figure out where to go ! :( LOL Somehow we wandered around here and there before settling down in Manhattan Fish Market in Suntec City . Btw i put wandering around too mildly because we actually walked A LOT . I think we clocked at least 12km ? That's 30 rounds around the track for ya . LOL . Yes we are walking monsters MUHAHAHHAHA . After Manhattan i think we went to city plaza which actually was kind of a disappointment ... But i got a new and chio and pretty cheap phone case there , so that made the trip to the ulu place at Paya Lebar 1.5% more worth it i guess ? P: Then we bused back to town and went for ice cream at Tom's Palette which was truly the highlight of the day . Hahahaha . Now that i think about it , we like some losers sia ... Hahahha . Ended the day by walking around the pretty places in town to camwhore and take polaroid and feed my eyes some candies because my eyes have been so deprived recently .
Okays actually we weren't really walking around and enjoying the scenery but we were trying to figure out how to be able to bus home . In the end we trained home thanks to the road blockages due to the F1 closing ceremony . Yes tyvm F1 , tyvm ! Nonetheless , as always , i enjoyed the time spent with Rio because she always make me feel so comfortable in my own skin . Secondly , I know that if I had been with other girls , they would be complaining about the endless roads I make them walk for getting lost in town but Rio was there for me throughout (PHYSICLALY) and even if she might have been getting tired and annoyed , she looked and sounded and felt like she didn't mind so i'm more than grateful for that . I guess ... That's what friends are for :') It might have been the dumbest thing ever but it still felt great because you have each others' company . ^^ Omg my cheesy hormones are overworking agains . Hahahahha .
A note from the author : Hope you guise have as much fun reading this as i had writing it ! :P
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Sometimes , I need space .
Thursday, September 26, 2013 | 10:06 PM
But today is not one of those days . (continuing the line from the title) :p Photo taken during one of my mugging session in school with Isabelle during the holidays . (well , she cant be seen cause obviously someone has to take the photo right?) Have i ever mentioned how much i love her ? I think in this whole world , other than my brother , only she will be able to relate to my family issues . :') Speaking of family issues , I guess only people who have really know KNOW me , (i apologize for my inability to execute accurately what you guys call the English vocabulary :/) knows that i actually have seriously strict parents . You know , those kind of extremely traditional mindset and stubborn and strict parents you see on television ?
I guess from what i portray , either on the social network or when i hang around people , i dont seem like i'm weighed down by family issues . Yes i know i do go out alone but truth be told i was seldom given the permission to . :x And i guess i am a true living testimony of "the strictest parents raise the best liars" . I really dont mean to you know , lie about what i do , who i befriend , and where i go and stuffs but you know , a hungry lioness didn't mean to devour its cubs either right ? (Please , correct me if i am wrong or else i will just look like an idiot ... or rather , give me a better animal for comparison LOL) The lying thing . Has become somewhat like a survival instinct . ... I need to save my own skin . ... Actually it's more for my selfish happiness .
And happiness . ... I think i've gotten a lot of it lately . :X Yes despite the exam stress and all . Because there's my certain special someone recently seems to be ... Hmmm how do i put it ... More lovable ? He doesn't use to (and by use to i mean like last year and start of this year) want me as much . Last time when he wanted to find me , it didn't use to be "just because i want to see you" (well , typing "i miss you" is too mainstream and too predictable to be mentioned , although the message is the same) Knowing that you're wanted by the person whom you put as first priority in your heart and hold so dearly , it's .... there's no happier feeling really . ... Other than being with him of course :x Yes i'm a die-hard romantic at heart :x And there you go . First-hand , seldom-publicized (tragic?) love story of le Teh Ah LOL . .... There's nothing else that cans (yes i am aware of my horrible grammar) make me as happy like him de :x (Oh other than scoring an A for Chemistry of course)
But for everything in life , there is always two sides to a coin . (: So after saying the romantic happenings that people like to hear , here is reality knocking at our doors . There is no such thing as a perfect love story . So here’s just a small part of the problems I face with him yeah ? (And thinking about it , this also made me discover more about myself , what a little devil I really am) De other day I was just being the same , thinking about him and missing him (yes I am trying to stop being so dependent on him for my own happiness but he is also making up for the family love that I lacks you see .... If you’re going to judge me or lecture me , please , step into my shoes first , smell le hong kong feet and then decide whether you wanna say what you wanna say.)
So yours truly went to call him as I was missing him . Guess what . I was greeted with “What the fuck! Call me for what.. Im in the middle of something.” ....... Yes let the shock sink in ........ Immediately I could feel myself turning cold . (The kind of Antarctica cold where you just wanna RIP OFF someone’s fur coat and make them STING from the cold icy winds WITH you) I already cannot stand people swearing around me , so I totally cannot bear anyone swearing AT me . Much less him . After hanging up on him , I typed this text to him: “Sorry I called . Shouldn’t do something so stupid anymore . What if next time you are planning to jump down 50 storey and because of my call , you changed your mind . That would be a tragedy wont it ?” ... Yes I am mean .
But of course I din send that out . Being me , I gave him the cold shoulder instead . Yes I don’t do hot wars but cold wars . Because the warmth one feels from the fire , does not hurt as much as the chills of the ice . Because fighting against someone else is easier than the person leaving you and you have to fight with yourself . And you DO NOT want your enemy's life to be easy . (: So after ignoring his messages for about 10 hours , I replied (why not 24 hours you say? Because a big part of me still misses him and can’t live without him I guess.) I texted him : “She’s supposes to be that annoying person you adore. She says corny shit, but it makes you smile. She says dumb shit, but you know she’s just worried. She tells you how she feels all the time so you don’t forget that you mean everything to her. When you fight, she goes to bed sick to her stomach. And stays that way until you make up. You’re the only thing that makes everything better but”
“You hurt her with all the fuck you said and gave .
So now she shall hurt you with all the fuck that she don’t give.”
I din send out the part that got the swear words of course , actually I end at the word ‘but’ to leave him hanging . And I leave it to your imagination . About what I could have , should have and would have said (but didn’t) . However , it made me realize how much of a mean person I can be . How badly i want to manipulate my words until someone will curl up in pain on the same level as me (Yes there were worse ones but I suddenly cant remember what I said . Or maybe my brain cells just decide to do some selective memory thingy for me) .... Anyhow , does the things I hide , make me more of a devil though ? ... I am seventeen and I am suffering from an identity crisis.
Back to the happier side of le Teh Ah's life coin . For a JC life in RV ... I think i've gotten the best end of it . I like being in a class where there aint no stress (you know those crazy mugger people who all they talk about ishh homework/projects/academics/portfolio everyday? aint my cup of tea tyvm) and i'm so so so grateful for a class where there aint no fake people (with people like that .... i really cannot ....) So ... Here's to my JC life that i've been looking forward to since primary school . P: and if there really some sort of powerful and Godly being up there ... PLEASE I DONT WANNA RETAIN PLEASE LET ME STAY WITH THEM .
The photos were taken during our recent class lunches this September . The above was taken in Pizzahut in JP and the bottom one was taken in IKEA . I really really do appreciates each and everyone of them who tries to make it and even though i dont get to spend my ideal amount of time with each one of them , (because there is just that many number of people you can interact with at one time right?!) it's great just to feel their presences around ! .... is my cheesiness kicking in ? Yes i will try to maintain ... :X And although undeniably , we still have cliques within our small number of 22 , ultimately , 5F'13 still feels very "wholly" (sounds like HOLY doesnt it :p yes i am PUNny ... or is yours truly trying to hard?) to me ^^ And it's evident that this year whizzed by WAYYYYY too fast and every time i think about it , i feel very empty knowing that my years in RV is soon gonna come to an end ... The familiar faces , routines , environment , things-i-hate-and-complain-about , routes , culture .... NO WONDER MANY RV-ians COME BACK TO TEACH IN RV !
Back to talking about my JC1 class . One thing that i must really mention which yours truly learnt after meeting them this year , is to never ever judge someone before you truly know them . Yes it's something one says nearly every other day but this really struck me only after i enter JC1 . It is common knowledge and practice that in year 3 and 4 , rumors are flying , we specialize in stalking and gossips are our main supply of entertainment and topic for conversations . I bet i am not the only one who , before entering Le JC1 class , look through the list of those who are gonna be in your class and 1) find familiar names ; 2) watch out for names to be wary of (well, because at that time the only thing you know about the person are the rumors you hear about them) and 3) form a potential group of people who you see yourself hanging out with . ... That was me about 9 months ago .
Today my opinions and impressions of almost everyone has changed . (Yes some are still weirdos that yours truly lacks the brain cells to comprehend) And while i love , or is saying 'bask in' more appropriate (?), the company of some more and more (like Huimin , Divya , MiaoYe , JiaLing , Yiling) on top of Kaiwen , Janice , Shirley and Brangelina (okays thinking of them reminds me of some inside jokes that is really funny and while i really love to share , the fun part of it all , is that IT IS AN INSIDE JOKE) OH AND OMG DID I JUST FORGET TO MENTION WAIHONG ?! HAHAHHAHA (he was warning me not to post about him but hahahah challenged accepted!) On the other hand , while i was at first neutral with some people , after hanging out with them , their actions , behavior and mindset really made me go like "omg so (that person) is like this de ah...? ewwww?"
Disclaimer: PARDON ME IF YOURS TRULY SOUND BIMBOTIC. It's just a weird tendency.
Photo: Shirley, Brangelina, Kaiwen, Janice and Xinying (Left to Right)
This girl in the middle turns 17 today . Tell yall a very interesting story okays?! So yours truly always thought that she is not quite a gullible person but this Kaiwen , she kept up with the lie (that does nobody any benefits btw) for so long , since I started knowing her in January , that I bought her lie and only found out that i was deceived by her all this while a few days ago ... Heres how it goes : From the class list , we saw that her birthday is on 26th September . But she told us that that is not her real birthday and that her real birthday is on 31st December but her parents want her to join our batch that's why they changed her birthday to 26th September (which is also her parent's anniversary date if i am not wrong... or is it honeymoon...? okays not the main point) so as to guarantee her a spot in the 1996 batch .
When i first hear it , I didn't buy it of course . But for the past 9 months that i knew her , she just keep trying to convince me LOL and i din know when , but somehow along the way , i believed her .... (only to find out the painful (yes let me exaggerate please) truth a few days ago) . Decided to blog about this so that years down the road , when she search her name and her birth date , she might come across this post and remember what an annoying and wu liao person she had been . LOL hahahha . But of course she has been forgiven because i think i've been more annoying to her like ... HAHAHHA no i shall preserve my own reputation :p
And with all my love and gratefulness for her being with me , I hope that she will have a great life and not just a great birthday ahead . Marrying the guyS (yeap guy with an ‘S’ behind . Wait ... Omg did I just made a pun there without meaning to ? Hahahha) that she wants and nurturing to become a knowledgeable , sophisticated and independent woman that I foresee her to be :P
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A day without sunshine is like , night .
Sunday, September 1, 2013 | 12:02 PM
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Was getting worried about my GP (General Paper. Or really the english subject) coming Wednesday and I realize my problem with my comprehension was that I could never find the way I wanna express what i think the questions want. And sometimes when i blog , i get blocked . :/ And the greatest problem with my essays , is that i dont have strong opinions about any topic . Where did the emotions all go i wonder . And that makes me vulnerable because i have no stand , on top of the lack of statistics and evidence . Really gonna be killed by the bell curve if this keeps up . So now , i will try giving an opinion about topic i picked off from the G.C.E A Levels book ! Here goes nothing P: Oh and a little song for motivation :)
"Can humor ever be serious?" - 2012
Firstly , on a lighter note (i've never seen anyone put on a lighter note first actually... we humans usually put them at the end of writings after saying something serious or potentially dark since they say it's a on a "lighter" note afterwards but anyways) I found the question interesting because it feels like it contradicts yet it's pieced together so nicely . Normally when one see/hear/say humor , they would be thinking that it's gonna be funny or something hilarious right ? But no earthlings , together we are going for "seriously" funny ... or "funnily" serious . Dang I cant even be humorous when i'm trying to be T.T Okays back to the question ... So i'm suppose to either agree or disagree . Hmmm ... Let me get my thesaurus ready first .
The line in humor is defined by a joker and a clown. Both uses humor to make people laugh but the former makes the others laugh with him while the latter makes the others laugh at him . While one uses wit to sell his idea , the other uses gag to entertain . Yes humor can be serious and if played well, one will be able to not only persuade his listeners but also get their attention admiration and respect. But of course, if the cards are not played well, one will look like a fool. (And a fool is a 37th floor window washer who steps backs to see his work.) On the other hand, humor use with the intention to entertain can also go a long way but most usually taken with a pinch of salt and not so seriously.
That was my introduction i guess? Might continue writing the essay after i blog finish P: Anyways, having gotten the question, i also got the answer they provide for this question. And so the author wrote for the agree part: "Humor can be expressed or delivered with serious intention and content when it is perceived and utilized as a suitable platform to communicate serious societal matters to society and stakeholders" and he went on to argue about it from the political stage, mass media platform and practitioners of the Arts. And for the disagree part, he wrote: "The nature of humor in its various forms and practices revolves around making light of subject matter, making it unsuitable to communicating serious societal matters to society and stakeholders." ... Chim-ology strikes again.
"Consider the view that most work these days could, and should, be done at home." - 2010
This time i will share what the author writes first (forgive yours truly for being too lazy to think for now)
YES: "Societal conditions today make working from home a rational and viable option for many." and talked about knowledge-intensive jobs, raise productivity levels due to the more emotionally comforting environments of their homes, and working from home allows parents to take care of their child better. (sounds reasonable.... makes me wonder about the tons of people yours truly saw working/studying on the floor of Jurong Regional Library which i was in yesterday... seriously, how productive can one be when they are mugging on the floor, holding onto their boyfriend/girlfriend. I can no longer comprehend. ...Though yours truly was guilty of eyeing this eye candy yesterday... so back to the essay,)
NO: Societal conditions today make working from home a less rational and viable option for many." Working from home endangers the protection of data relating to client confidentiality or national security, and working from home provides many distractions and only reduce our productivity, last but not least, working from home lacks professionalism.
Hmmm personally, I'm not one for working in the office. I would really prefer a job that would allow me to interact with strangers and travel around! I guess the ideal place to work is one that gives one the best productivity and the easiest way to get about doing it is to give one a comfortable environment which inspires. ... If i really have to work in the office... What would i give to be able to work at place, where, when i look out of the window, i see the place where the earth and the sea meets, where the waves crashes into the shores, where the colors are so picturesque and scenic and where my heart will be at peace. What would i give to be able to feel accomplished for what i did instead of having to do what i'm suppose to. Is the adult world like this? I realize i'm not answering the question but meh whoever said i have intended to at first?
Please dont take away my rights to dream
and that would make me a very sad person indeed !
"Fashion is as much a good thing as a bad thing." To what extend do you agree? - 2009
Hmmm a highly debatable and interesting topic... I remember one of my english teacher once asked something along the lines of who is it that defines fashion/art . Why is it that they (... why does so many of them come from England, U.S., France and Italy...) can consider it "in the season" and fashionable but when someone else , someone like us , try to set a different trend , others might not follow . Who are they to define fashion ? Are we the ones who unknowingly gave them the rights to ? Or they truly have the capability or what we call , an eye for fashion? As individuals, we all have our own unique taste and preferences, so why is it that we call someone's get up ugly just because we can't see the beauty of what they saw in what they chose to wear.
And from the author, YES: "Fashion is indispensable as it fulfills several important societal roles" and NO: "Fashion is marginal or peripheral to our well-being as it undermines societal well-being in various ways."
Because on one hand , le fashion industry generates high number of employment and commercial benefits for the global economy BUT the constant need for fashion to reinvent itself creates artificial fads and rends that encourage materialism and a throw-away culture. Fashion can serve as an instrument of social change and transformation BUT fashion may perpetuate various forms of social injustice, such as child labor.
Okays my brain cells are not listening to me anymore ... Still have loads to do so i'll stop here for today although i think what i just blogged about made me more intellectually challenged ... Anyways i feel like going out very much but I'm afraid that I will regret it but Im not being productive at home . Such a bad ending to this post man :(
"Feelings dont end when we stop talking"
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