I am forced by the passing of time, the transition of life stages, and the expectations of society to grow up and to behave like a "grown-up" (whatever that would constitute). But here, I would just be a little childish, a little self-centered, a little irresponsible, a little too honest but also a little too pretentious.

24, and still counting.




Kept all my past posts intact because my past was what made me, me. Deleting them doesn't change who I am so I revisit my memories sometimes, to learn and to laugh at my past mistakes.

(Just kidding, I revert some posts to drafts because I'm utterly embarrassed.)


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Had a new seating arrangement . Wohoohoo ._. I find it hurting , hurts like hell , okays I’m lost at what words to use to describe the tears I blinked back . Sorry for my limited vocab . Lawls . But it seriously hurts when one make it so obvious that they don’t wanna seat beside you . Like my previous tablemate and current one , who apparently don’t wanna sit beside me la . Lawls . It’s probably cause it’s me . /demoralised/ But from now on , shall make it a point not to broadcast or show my distaste for someone else . ( … not like I have much hatred for anyone . though I do have my “the judge” title from Kari for something :X )
` For who knows how much tears one blinked back when you shun someone .

Past three days had been meeting up with Amy before going school . Went to play at the playground , hung around the blocks near school , ate breakfast at void decks , reaching school later than usual … LOL . Now sounding like a rebel . But these makes it not feels like a school day . And it’s so much better being able to sleep in late and not having to catch the early bus . And finally have someone to pei me window shop (literally) in the morning at JP !

I guess it’s true that being with someone gives you courage . You feel like there’s someone for you to fall back on , and do things that you would never do when you’re alone . ( for fear of being judged maybe ? ) It’s like the gangs and gangster thing . One would fear for a gang more than a gangster ( who would usually call for his gang . LOL . ) No wonder they say strength comes in numbers .
` For when you’re alone , you’d be more aware of the fact that you are .

Not that I don’t like my alone time . I love , during emotional weather , being alone . Travelling alone especially . On a bus , going for a long walk , writing essays in my (self-acclaimed) beautiful handwriting . I actually treasure my personal space so much that I’d distance myself or close people out . And it kinda makes me feel in control . Maybe cause when there’s a crowd , I’d need to fight for the oxygen in the air . ... Stupid . I know .


Missed the Duathlon CIP on Saturday . Mr Xiong once said that those CIP have limited learning points but personally I love this kind of CIP . Meeting people from all walks of life , learning about how different events function , opening doors to different worlds . And it showed me different jobs from the usual 9 to 5 office work , doctor , lawyer , teacher , policemen , firemen . … Get my point . I remembered my first marathon-related CIP . Memorable ttm . And the sense of achievement was overwhelming .
` What would I give to relive the best moments of my life .

Was finding people to pei me on Saturday . In the end met with Fengxian first . Yeah had replies from other people but he was the first . And for once my “friend” was finally free but by then I already made arrangements with Fengxian . Lawls . So I decided ( after a long struggle and quarrel ) , not to cancel plans with Fengxian . I never regret . … Okays maybe a little . But I kinda arrived too early and had to eat breakfast at KFC alone . SURPRISINGLY , I felt quite comfortable in my own skin , eating alone I mean . ... Must be their delicious porridge . LOL .

Went library with him to study . Cleared concepts and traded notes on chemistry . /senseofachievement/ Pity he never learn physics or else I’m sure he could have helped me with that too . Have chemistry and physics test on this Friday . /stressedmax/ after he left , Alicia came . LOL . .. What a day to be meeting primary school friends . Also went to cut hair with Alicia ( same thing happened last year ) . But the $2.50 haircut left me feeling like a cancer patient with what little hair I have left .
` Cause people who really care appear in different forms and at the most unexpected times .


Actually , I was like writing this post during second period of school . Lawls . Could actually , somehow , think and sort through my thoughts clearer . Anyways , just got back my geog paper and like failed miserably . Why . Am . I . Not . Surprised ? … Yet disappointed . Haven’t been doing well in geography since ... since I started learning it . LOL . No idea why I chose geog over history , physics over biology , when my interest is both for the latter .
` For we chose the one we think we can be happier with over the one who promise to make us happy .

P.S. The photos are the webcams i took from 2010 , 2011 and lastly 2012 .
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( Photo : 140212 )
All i cans say ishh Valentine was disappointing . The thing ishh , i din even know what im expecting . If i really know you , should have known better than to hope for anything , but if i dont know you through and through , i've no right to hope for anything from you .

This morning walked by a bunch of kids playing catching at the void deck . …. And I suddenly felt very old indeed . Lawls . When was the last time I played catching , now games like these seems so un-ladylike . So many things are now deemed unglam when you grow up . When people say “ I used to …. When I was young … ” , I wished I could say “ I still do that now ” . The innocence , the carefree-ness , these things that I miss every once in a while .

Been posting quite frequently recently . Somehow have this feeling that the quality ishh dropping as the quantity increase though . LOL . Learning econs now . Still deciding whether I should continue taking it in JC . From what my seniors said ( whom I so dearly trust ) , econs in year 5 and 6 ishh not so easy . And that learning these minor parts of econs in year 4 ishh really just a waste . Which is why I rather take as little subjects as possible instead of combi like triple science , then I cans focus on specific subjects . P:

Speaking of seniors , was just thinking about how unsure of everything I am once I’ve become a senior myself . It’s just like the story of how a mother taught her daughter how to eat the fish but not how to fish . Now the responsibility of teaching the new juniors are passed down to me and there’s just so many things to teach that I dunno how to start and I realize that . I’ve to figure it out myself . And I can only blame myself for bloody playing truancy when I was in year 1 . ( And just have to show a year 1 photo : )


I’m not sure whether I post this before but whichever , I must really express how I much I agree with this quote : We hurt the ones who love us and love the one who hurt us . And suddenly That’s the Way I Love You by Taylor Swift plays in my head . I had a great boyfriend , “ He is sensible and so incredible that all my single friends are jealous ~ ” He never hurts me like you do , never leaves me crying overnight , letting me sleep with tears in my eyes and made sure even if we fight , I will fall asleep feeling fine .

And the only reason why I fell asleep when I talk to you was just because I was too exhausted or too hurt to continue talking . Your goodnight could be said with contempt , but when you do mean it , I became too overwhelmed with affection . I love falling asleep while being hugged by you . It’s sounds like a long ago dream . … Perhaps I was just in love with the you in my memory . Sheesh I really need a new cute guy to fall for . Seems like just not so long ago when I was looking for new love . LOL .

Last time I used to blog going by so call topics . Like list events under studies , CCA , friends , family , relationship , outings , CIPs , piano lessons . Now I’m like just typing whatever that comes to mind . Actually if I were able to type whatever that’s on my mind , I wouldn’t have lost so many inspiration . I hate it to the core when I had wonderful inspiration ( when I’m having my walks or showers ) then when I cans finally settle down to record them , I had no idea what was on my mind . Like writer’s block . /abruptending/
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( Regarding the above photo ) Went with Jiahui to MAAD Pyjamas de other day . It really promotes and let more people know about local budding entrepreneur and their creative artworks . Had a few good buys there which i'm really proud of . And when i dig out the links agains maybe i'll help them do some promo too . P: Really good experience going to places like these really .

Tired but happy . Sense of achievement feeling you know . Even next week’s three difficult test ( which I really need to mug hard for ) aint gonna dampen my mood . ... Don’t really want this week to end . Signed up for this duathlon event this Saturday but it starts at like 5am at the other end of Singapore of and all this confusion with the event makes me very moodless ): LOL and somehow without meaning to , my mood managed to get dampened agains .

Anyways , today had CID momuments trail . Went to The Arts House , the Peranakan Museum , Fort Canning , Nagore Durgha Shrine and NTU . Our CID the main objective is to design a one-hour trail consisting of four monuments . And share like why we chose to do these monuments etc. Last month also went on this trail done by the previous batch which monuments cover The Arts House , Victoria Concert Hall , Padang , and somewhere which I cant remember . But cause we go Arts House before ler so the first monument turn out to be quite sian and people haven’t warm up yet . :/

Then eventually it got better at better . But I think had my group prepared better , we would have a much better effect . :/ But nevertheless I still learn quite a lot and having visited the place , it makes us more familiar with the surrounding and more experience . I was just thinking , maybe I can really consider jobs like tour guide or ambassador of some sort . Really like interacting with people , and leading them to go play ( something like that ) . Which is why I want study psychology . Like to study people , how their mind works , what people think . And counseling , talking to other people , understand their problems so on and so forth . I cant do the usual 9 to 5 office work . My brain will die and burst and give like the best fireworks display ever (:

Anyways , just now went shopping with this guy ( who chose not to be name in case stuffs spread WITHIN the family , LOL . kinda self explanatory ? ) And whoever that said women ishh much more indecisive when it comes to shopping should rethink his argument . :x He was choosing a bracelet for this girl , and we went to shops after shops and I started teaching him on how to wear bracelets , normally what presents girls like to get , what type of bracelets make your fingers look more slender etc . And when we finally made our purchase like two hours later , I had this huge sense of achievement !

Cause like it’s not often I’ll shop for girl stuff with guys and ... guys and girls think so differently ! LOL . And guys cans be really clueless when it comes to accessories , not the choosing nice one part , but stuffs like the putting on part ( e.g. the clasp ) . … Wa . Being a female really not easy . P: one day shall like compare the pros and cons . Heehee . Oh and I just realize I take like 9 subjects . English , Chinese , Math , Physics , Chemistry , Singapore Studies , Geography , Econs , CID . Feeling like a superwoman (Y)
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(P.S. this photo ishh of a random beautiful butterfly which stalks me when i went to the Zoo some time at the end of last year . TEEHEE)
Yours truly thinks she has been sounding too emo when she post . SO NOT HER USUAL SELF IRL tyvm :P THEREFORE she will now share a joke which she heard from her dad who heard it on the radio ( I think the radio hasn’t been given the just credit it deserves ) So there’s this competition on 972FM called “好笑meh?” which you’re suppose to tell a joke which no one will expect , ishh short , and has to be like really funny (like duh?) SO there’s this 70 year old plus participant :

Host : 你是来做什么的？
Her : 我是来交男朋友的
Host : 这个年龄还交男朋友?!
Her : 好笑meh?

Well she won . LOL ! Okays maybe it doesn’t sound funny when you read it but when my dad says it I find it hilarious . Okays I cant think of anymore funny stuffs now . Hmmmm . Chinese class was quite fun though . Was the last lesson and was like sleepy and all but for once the teacher came up with a fun activity instead of the usual read the passage , explain the words blahblahblah . So we had like a mini competition among groups of four . The “game-master” , who are apparently the best in Chinese in class were to give definition of words in the passage then we’re suppose to find the word then also find the word in this crossword puzzle .

Okays it sounds kinda boring when I say it like this but what I’m trying to put across is , it really depends on your attitude . And I’ve always believe in that attitude changes everything . You cans chose to be happy , you cans chose to be participative or you cans chose to , well , give up and emo , complain that life sucks and what so ever . Wait . I wont go into the chim-thinking , psychology-ish , use brains stuffs today and thats that . P: Oh here’s a short brain teaser :

A man was travelling to heaven . Way in front of him , there is two identical paths , one of them leads to heaven and the other , to hell . On the way there , he will meet someone , who will either be the devil or the angel . But both of them looks identical ( so he have no idea whether he met the angel or devil ) . He cans only ask one question . The devil will always lie and the angel will always tell the truth .
What question did the man ask to reach heaven safely ?

Anyways , was thinking whether I should just get an MC ( thanks to my blocked nose , burning throat and mind-numbing head ) tomorrow already . And was just thinking of the stuffs I saw at the polyclinic the last time I was at there . ( which was a school day and I was suppose to go to school but I was sick la apparently ) It was during the new year week last month I think . When my dad was overseas . ( Or else he would make me drag myself to school even if I’m half dead ) What I wanted to say was , ( before I side tracked and added in random stuffs here and there like this ) ishh that it’s disheartening to see that there really are students out there who will just buy an MC just to miss school .

I don’t understand what’s the point really . You’ll just probably end up wasting your day , waste your parents’ money buying a MC ( which you don’t need if you cans highfive your friend and say likeaboss and do some hand sign which I find pointless to mention ) , miss out on classes , and maybe get into trouble outside ? Wow . Exciting day . ( Personally , that day when I was feeling better in the afternoon , I managed to finish Singapore Studies Essay and my CID Preliminary Idea (PI) oh and Kellie came over in the evening … to play SIMS Social on FB . LOL . )

What’s so horrible about school ? O: Yeah it’s tiring and all but you’ve friends and you get to hear stories from your teachers , learn new stuffs and so on . ( Personally , I bask in personal achievement and pride whenever I cans understand what my teacher’s saying and when I complete my assignments . Essays especially . ) Oh now learning about education in English class . So here goes me trying to act like I'm a mature thinker , the question of the day ( okays of this post anyways ) ishh , what’s so horrible about school ?

Things will just get worse as you grow up , trust me .
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"OH MY GOD PEOPLE
I have (unknowingly) been on hiatus, ok I don't even know if that makes sense but I really didn't realize I have not been blogging." – T.SHIJING

Without realizing it, it’s now nearing the end of another month ( February ) . Haven’t been blogging cause there’s just too much too say and like what my Chinese teacher told me , I cans be quite messy when it comes to my thoughts . Which ishh why I cant write lun wen D: I’ll just write whatever that’s on my mind then never sort it out properly . But the more I don’t blog I think the worse it’ll get luh uhh . Maybe I’ll just update a few stuffs here and there .

This year , my new year was spent very differently from previous years . Maybe cause this year new year come so early , and it’s over the weekend with little holidays so I spend most of it in Singapore . Or else I’d be in Malaysia . But anyways , this year my dad went over to china during this period so I had more freedom . Went to visit quite a few people’s house including my maths teacher and year 1 and 2 Chinese cum form teacher . Spending it for the first time with friends rather than family , I’d really love to do it agains next year …. Gosh . How I love dressing up and going out . :/

Have been really considering my future . Given the chance , maybe I’ll transfer to NJC next year . ( Hopefully my results cans make it ) I don’t want my JC experience to be ruin by RV :/ Really need a change of environment . Actually I’ve always wanted to go Hwa Chong JC but after 4 years of Chinese schooling , it’s exhausting . If I cans leave I guess the only regret I will have ishh not leaving any legacy behind ( I bet even if I stay in RV till year 6 also no legacy . )

Oh have I been telling anyone ? My whole life ishh like about band now . LOL . Monday after school go out , Tuesday after school got junior band , Wednesday after school senior band , Thursday after school junior band sectionals , Friday after school junior band then senior band , Saturday day morning either junior band tutor or senior band combines . And then having all these admin stuffs that makes my head hurts . D: ( Side track abit , a lot people now falling sick . Class nowadays don’t really have full attendance . I think I really falling sick . Hopefully ishh on the day which have RV literature test . Next day chemistry test some more . ) … Band has been really making my hair drop more . On the up side , band going Taiwan in june ! /likeaboss


Test week now . Having enough stress already . So I tell myself , this time I wont bother so much about pleasing everyone . It’s one thing to make others happy , and it’s another thing to always give in to others and putting them before yourself . No I not so wei da tyvm (: So now if people give me attitude or black face I wont think twice about returning the favour . How would you feel if you have to face people giving you attitude all the time ? Okays maybe giving back the same mean treatment ishh too guo fen . Maybe I should just avoid this kind of people so that my hair will stay on my head and my smile will remind on my face . P:

Somehow couldn't sleep last night . But I couldn't study either . Head was like bursting but yet I cant settle down . In the end tried listening to 933 or was it 987FM . LOL yeah I couldn't remember if I heard some chinese songs or english songs . But I remember thinking “ wa the girl de vocals very sweet and nice “ . LOL . And apparently listening to the radio on mp4 ishh a great mistake cause my temperature like 37.8 now . Fever come on Tuesday only cans ?! Tuesday got maths test ): Tuesday got band . ):

Oh yeah , going Cambodia during Explorers and Connectors (E&C) week . Around 5th to 9th march . So glad I don’t have to stay in Singapore . Last time E&C week was so much more fun . ( With agreement from my Year 6 seniors ) Cans still remember the Chanbara in year 2 . Lawls . Dunno what’s happening to the school’s organisation now . Always say will have cool things but now no more cool things . ... Okays i just lost the inspiration to blog agains . Till next time then . :)


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