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Sunday, January 15, 2012 | 10:22 PM
And today i turn sixteen . LOL . Sorry for all the hiatus . I had been too lazy to blog and i feel like i've been typing meaningless stuffs . :/ Anyways , now i aiming for a 4.0 GPA so been studying more than last year . And had been studying till 11pm even on CCA days which ishh something i've never done before . This year received quite a few birthday cards , still waiting for some from some special people and hoping desperately i'll get them tomorrow . :x My brother was like saying my friends all super sincere . Kellie left presents for me at my doorstep last night . Charmaine came at 12.12am to pass me my presents and my long-awaited Th5 ring . :x
Rio told me she went to read my past posts ( after i did some self-advertising on her birthday card . LOL . ) then she said she felt like she had quite a few /icansrelate/ moments . Mixed feeling . Lawls . I always felt like i've quite a shameful past with way too many selfish and childish thoughts . Okays maybe now still have a bit . AISEH . Anyways , since today ishh kind of a special day for me , i shall do something totally honest and revealing about myself . Really not something i will normally do uhh . :x It's call the 10 Day Tumblr Challenge which i'll do all in one day . :) ... other than the day one de . :x
Day one : 10 things you want to say to 10 different people
Day two : 9 things about yourself
Day three : 8 ways to win your heart
Day four : 7 things that cross your mind
Day five : 6 things you wish you'd never done
Day six : 5 people who mean a lot ( in no order whatsoever )
Day seven : 4 turn offs
Day eight : 3 turn ons
Day nine : 2 smileys that describe your life right now
Day ten : 1 confession
9 things about myself
1. I love to spam hand write stuffs cause i think my handwriting very pretty .
2. I love physical contact . It doesn't mean i'm sick but i just ...
3. I think the whole world ishh very contradicting . Like , they say time and tide waits for no man , but they want us not to rush through life and to take it slow .
4. I love talking to teachers . No i not suck up . I just wanna talk to adults .
5. I once hope to make a difference in this world . Like maybe winning the Nobel Prize or something .
6. I think i am currently crapping and not saying what people really want to hear .
7. I hate discussing homework with my friends but i cant help it .
8. I feel very disappointed and embarrassing when stuffs i post does not get any recognition .
9. I pierced my ears cause it makes me more confident .
8 ways to win my heart
1. Have to be good-looking . ... What i consider good looking anyways .
2. Have this certain aura .
3. Know what you're doing .
4. Sha jiao without making me feel disgusted .
5. Cook . Esp what i like to eat .
6. Bring me to places i've never been to .
7. Be able to stay out of reach but let me feel that you'll always be there when i need you to .
8. Be strong . Mentally and physically . I dont pick people up de .
7 things that cross your mind
1. This is not as easy as i thought it will be . Serious .
2. It's late already . My CID cannot stop crossing my mind .
3. I have been comparing all my past experiences with my ex and crush while doing this .
4. Why am i forever refreshing my fb like some loser .
5. My mouth have this stupid fish smell feeling .
6. I really feel like avoiding some people .
7. I JUST REALIZE I HAVEN'T HAD A BIRTHDAY CAKE THIS YEAR O.O
6 things you wish you'd never done
1. Broke up with my "friend" .
2. Been rude to my mum .
3. Quit PSL .
4. Pon band when i was in Year 1 .
5. Bitch about other people .
6. Not practising my piano hard enough .
5 people who mean a lot
Alicia . My "friend" . Sally . Amy . Mdm Rahayu .
4 turn offs
1. Figureless figure .
2. Awkward pauses .
3. Small actions .
4. Uncertainty .
3 turn ons
1. Genuine smile .
2. Passion .
3. Taking the first move .
2 smileys that describe your life right now
O: and ;P
and the long awaited , 1 confession
Maybe it's true that either you've been loving all along or you haven't loved at all . Maybe it's true that if you're the one who fell in love first , you'll fall out of love first too . Maybe it's true that there really ishh such stuffs as meant to be . Two years ago i cut my lovely reborn hair to remind myself that this is a new start and i will never go back to him agains . So why . Why ishh it that at night , i'll still think about him . And the way his name light up on my screen gives me excitement which no one else still have yet to give me . Why am i running back to find you when i told myself i will never turn back .
My last confession , i am in love with my so call Friend .
I realize i am a very confusing person . LOL . I know i cant ever be with my "Friend" and i cant find another guy who cans get to me like he does . ... Actually i blogged cause i want to make people know more about myself and to let myself know more about what i'm thinking . Now i realize i'm doing it all wrong and i know i'm making everyone else as confuse as ever with me . Damn . Kays , shall go back to safer grounds . Maybe i'll take about band . LOL .
Going to perform with senior band at the Istana i think on May 1st . Then June maybe going taiwan with band if nothing bad crops up . Also gonna perform with junior band in June at the Esplanade . Sounds pretty exciting . :D But i'm in a dilemma . Idk if i should join senior band . I've kept telling myself that after this year i am free . Lawls . No more worries for band practise and i could maybe join ELDDS or photography or editorial or stuffs like that cause of my interest . But now i realize i cant bear to leave Sally alone in senior band after the Year 6s and Wanzhen leave after the Istana performance . But i'm afraid of the stress that's gonna come in senior band . :/
' if i think about it , i'm messed up . if i leave it aside , i'll be fine . But eventually , still messed up .
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