I am forced by the passing of time, the transition of life stages, and the expectations of society to grow up and to behave like a "grown-up" (whatever that would constitute). But here, I would just be a little childish, a little self-centered, a little irresponsible, a little too honest but also a little too pretentious.

24, and still counting.




Kept all my past posts intact because my past was what made me, me. Deleting them doesn't change who I am so I revisit my memories sometimes, to learn and to laugh at my past mistakes.

(Just kidding, I revert some posts to drafts because I'm utterly embarrassed.)


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Designed by: Ahting

Saya english results ranked forth in class . :D ... BUT ishh a B nia . D; Anyways , today marks the start of the 2-week-short morning band practise . Which i prefer over the usual school days actually . :X Cause i get to be car-ed to school by Kellie's dad . (Y)! Speaking of getting ferried to school in the morning , i miss de time which someone once did . For at that time i get a hug every morning . And hug does wonders mind you ! P:

According to my personal research , hugging is not only a nice way to start the day , but it's also necessary for our positive physical and emotional well-being . Various experiments have shown that hugging can make people feel better about themselves , positively affect children's language skills and IQ , and help improve the mental outlook of the person who is being hugged , as well as the hugger . Personally , yours truely ishh a very very huggable person . So next time you want a free hug , you know who to look for uhh ! ;X

The Power of Hugging
A HUG ,
- feels good
- dispels loneliness
- overcomes fear
- opens doors to feelings
- builds self-esteem ( WOW, SHE actually wants to hug me ! )
- slows down aging (huggers stay young longer)
- helps curb appetite ( we eat less when we are nourished by hugs and when our arms are busy wrapped around others )
- eases tension
- fights insomnia
- keeps arms and shoulder muscles in condition
- provides stretching exercise if you are short
- provides stooping exercise if you are tall
- offers a wholesome alternative to promiscuity
- offers a healthy, safe alternative to alcohol and other drug abuse (better hugs than drugs ! )
- affirms physical being
- is democratic ( anyone is eligible for a hug )
- is environmentally friendly ( it does not upset the environment )
- is energy-efficient (saves heat)
- is portable
- requires no special equipment
- demands no special setting
- makes happy days happier
- imparts feelings of belonging
- fills up empty places in our lives
- keeps on working to dispense benefits even after the hug is released

Lesson learnt from 400m sprint ytd . Always warm up and cool down for exercises , there’s a reason why teachers want you to do those dumb looking stretches . Grrrrr . Body aching all over now , thanks to my ignorance , for I din stretch after the sprint and now bending / squatting takes a lot of effort . D: Having a Subway(L) crave since last week . But no money buy . Damn loser right . LOL . Also dunno where all my money go . Anyways , today Singapore Studies promised to be different , we learnt a few tips to bad marriage . Cause according to Mswing , merger (between S’pore and Malaysia ) ishh like marriage . Maybe cause they both start with the letter ‘m’ ?

Tips for a Bad marriage .
1. Break your promises
2. Don’t trust your partner
3. Do things behind their back
4. Talk bad about the other party
5. Be unfair / unreasonable
6. Overly protective of your own rights
7. Get back at each other
8. Falsely accuse each other

We need more than pills to heal our wounded psyches - we also need the touch of love.
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Oh , i rmb i've mentioned that english oral presentation thing last post . Anyways , it was over by tuesday 220311 and i was the first presenter , just as i wanted . :X i think it went super well sia . Other than the super shaky hands that i had . I think i was pretty good cause i really put in a lot of effort . Hopefully , this presentation will help me get de A i want . :) Recently preparing for the upcoming IU day (....two weeks later . LOL) , honoured to be chosen by beloved Mrchan and Mrhing (L) to be MC . And have this brilliant opportunity to try out this cool software . :X Speaking of beloved teachers , i think i've got amazingly good (responsible , hardworking , forgiving , funny , cute , reasonable etc.etc. ) ones this year . (L) English-Mrhing , Maths-Mrchng , Chemistry-Mrxiong , Physic-Mrchan , Geography-Mrrawles , Chinese-ZHW , Singaporestudies-Mswing , good teachers make the lessons so much more bearable . :D Just now , found a very epic random chi compo in school . I think the topic was about who you admire most . This junior apparently choose a school cleaner . The composition passed uhh , and it's not THAT horrible until he come to his ending . Which he said something like , the laughter of uncle zhang makes me so happy and his smile ishh like the some flower bud opening , i cans see him on my mind and i will never forget him . EH LOL . Super funny . Sounds like the student got a crush on the uncle like that . LOL ! Maybe all of us had wrote something like this when we were younger , i'm sure as hell i want find back mine , i'll probably die of laughter . :D


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Went singapore science center to do a project yesterday . :X Hopefully , the efforts wont go down the drain and all . It's funny how i want to go do projects at an open space and i always ended up at the singapore science center . LOL . Like a place for little kidos and tourist . Have always wanted to go places like sky garden at vivo or marina barrage but always like too lazy go cause so far . I got curfew . Sucks . Still got like another two science group project , which i'm totally stuck at how to get it started . BUT i'm sure as hell i'm NOT going to singapore science center le . .... Just rmb , i heard that class cip ishh at the science center sia . LOL .

Positively the worst holiday yet . Japan having the worst bite uh . GRRRR . I hate die Mrhing . We're suppose to prepare a speech for the class , graded , and that speech has a pretty high weightage . Anyways , my topic ishh "Which artist(s) will you ban in singapore and why" . We're suppose to give the speech when school reopen after he approve what artist we chose . So i sent in my artist name a day before school closes and have already started doing my script when he msged me in the middle of monday night saying i shouldn't do that artist . ._. Waste my time , waste my effort , cut short my time and now i have to do a new script and find a new artist and idk where to start . Wth . GRRRR . It's no biggie really , but i really dont have the time , nor the mood to keep doing homework . Not planning to do all le . :X

Starting to love-hate band agains . Ytd was fun . Lols . Maybe because of that great "opening" of Mschan sharing stories with us . And other than that short-yet-seeming-like-eternity sudden focus she had on perc in Memories , no other pressure surprisingly . And i think we should really reply Mschan whenever she talk slash scold us . It just doesn't feel right if we dont respond . Oh and YAY we get to have another go at soundcheck . Hope that Mschan wont comment that perc too loud agains . ): Maybe it doesn't really show , but i feel like i've got improvements , however little . My piano teacher should be proud at how i managed to sight read the xylo score ytd ! ... Though it's only something like two hands-play-one-hand . :X Lastly , I realised i shouldn't rant about wanting more time . What i need , ishh the motivation and the mood .

This ishh actually a very sweet quote , Saying good night isn't a formality. It's the art of saying that I remember you in "my last minute of the day." And here ishh where the pessimistic me comes in , i dont think the night ishh good if you're not here with me . And what happens if someone said good bye ? Ishh it the art of saying i remember you in "my last moment on earth." ? Then where's the good in bye ?
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Mini-band concert was yesterday . Tiring ttm . It's good widening your insights and having new experiences but an overdose ishh too much . At first i was still listening to music but towards the end , i just find that it all become some noise somehow , and i end up irritating myself too . =/ But Yuhua is a really awesome school . And it totally makes up for everything . (Okays , maybe not counting the really sticky and stinky body i have at the end of the day .) But it gave me a sense of home RV couldn't give , a sense of home which i felt when i was primary school . I dont feel that it belongs to me , but i feel welcomed all the same . Maybe it's the people , or maybe it's the building , it just brings back reminiscences . (: Playing wise , i end up playing more and more mistakes as time goes by . Still cant believe i missed this triplet bar , which the whole band ishh practically playing and i happily "roll" the bar away . ._. Ah , and less and less self conscience , not in a good way . I just dont like full day band uh . Come home then almost immediately fall asleep , when i've so much more work to chiong too . Oh that reminds me , i better go "touch" my piano later .

Feel really attracted to clothings nowadays . Idk , i just like checking out the clothes whenever i walk by a boutique and feel very tempted to go in and look around . Even more tempted to whip out some cash to buy something . Thank god i've good self control though . LOL . That sounds kind of ironic . If i do have good self control i wont be here wasting my time le right . Should be mad chionging my homework . Wish i have the time to do other stuffs sia . D:

` Stop making me wait ,
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Finally went to watch a movie after a long while . :D i Am Number Four . Doesn't seem like much at first . But end of the show i got that same feeling i've got when i've watched Inception . And Inception ishh like , really really good . If i dont rmb wrongly , Isabelle managed to watch it like 3 times . P:
Holidays start already , start chionging homework already too . Surprise surprise . LOL . Many homework , but very little free time , 9 days holiday , 7 subjects of homework , 5 days full band , 3 graded projects , 1 little tired girl . GRRRRR . Not really looking forward to band . Even just thinking about it feels tiring already . SYF coming up , add on to the stress only . I dont think i cans go out after all . Sighh . And i was looking forward to maybe spend a day with you D:

You Are in Erotic Love

This doesn't mean that your love is purely sexual. Instead, it means your love is sensual and deep. When you met your partner, you didn't have any questions about your attraction. You had major chemistry going on! You are a true romantic, and you remember everything about when you and your partner first fell in love. And your feeling are still strong. You believe that your partner is your true soulmate and that you are meant to be together. Your love is too powerful to think otherwise.

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Today read newspaper in chi class . Only went through one article . LOL . About sec sch students should have relationship or not . Spent one hour analyzing one article . Zai right . Teacher chose people read part by part then there was this part when she asked , (translate into english) "now i want the person who's the best in chinese to read" and then tianhao stood up . LOL . Relationship uh . No more opinion on that matter . I just wanna stay happy . 5 min only also cans . For that just means 5 min lesser of pain . :)

I cans no longer imagine life without you , you seem to be stick with me since forever , really being there no matter what . We had all these fights and we hurt each other real bad . I said things i din mean and i wish i could take it all back . I've lost count of the guys who came , fcked me upside down and walked out of my life , but you were the only one who really loved me no matter what . I want things my way , i'm not those kind of lady-like girl who ishh ever so your type , i make you worry and upset , and yet , when i cry and you know , i cans hear your heart crying for me . I close myself up , i dont let people know what i'm like deep inside ( and i'm definately not an emotional or mentally unstable person if somehow i seem to be one ) . I say things , do things that have no meaning and that no one cans understand , like , why i'm like that . Sometimes it's funny , but when it stops being funny , it just hurts . I stop taking things seriously , and things like life and death , pride and image , consequences , they dont really seem to matter anymore . I do things that i really regret , that i cant explain , that i feel bad for , which i'm trying my best to forget . I think life sucks , like seriously . I'm not asking for love , for there comes a time when love stop doing it magic . But , thank god , your magic never fails me .
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Finally the week with all the crappy exams and presentations are over . Scary . D: Hopefully i'll get the results that i want . :) And in all the busy mess and all , i finally learnt what they meant by "Never leave the one you love for the one you like , for the one you like may leave you for the one they love."

Anyways , there was this consecutive days which i made presentations after presentations . Lol . And i realise i have this habit of talking s-l-o-w-c-a-u-s-e-i-w-a-s-n-e-r-v-o-u-s at times and superfastwithoutstoppingcauseiwastoonervous at times . there was never a perfect presentation i was really very proud of . oh wait . there ishh . But apparently , i was off topic and i din score as high as i hope to . ._. I remember though , it was so easy presenting to my keesiaoers . Those faces that i know , compare to the now , where i look at the audience and i dont really know what's on their mind . Sounding their horns under the table while pretending to look attentively maybe ? JK (: UH WELL , i kinda miss 2k . :x but i really really love 3j all the same . P:
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