the chance to love him ,
Saturday, July 30, 2011 | 7:04 PM
Been kinda busy lately . :) So here will be a long one . Realize i've always been going out after school randomly window shopping around or finding people to slack at places with . But yours truly had been pretty hardworking too . Worked like never before . :P Classes had been fun , sitting in front of Liziqian and Chestersng had been bloody interesting . New victims to my new-founded skills of irritating people . Hahaha . Just recently , we've been doing all kind of "psychological tests" . Some , a smack in the face , some , a true psychological test to see what you really are . Interested ? Next time go out with me and remind me to share it with you . P:
Been looking forward to going school early too . :x There's this guy in the early morning bus . Idk , but i just like being near him . Noticed him since start of year but recently . Recently heart beats faster when he's near . Maybe he wont be what you call drop dead gorgeous , but i think he's hot . Solid chest , mysterious eyes , attractive eyelashes , kissable lips , long slim fingers and personally , perfect height . Tempted to just rest my head on his shoulder as i stood there beside him against the window every morning . And every time i pick up my phone i wish i have his number and that i could talk to him , wish i knew him in real life . But i dont wanna screw it up . And i'm contented just to see him every morning , jumping out of bed and going through every long day just to see him in the wee hours of the morning . And i love him enough to control myself and keep him perfect in all my memories of him . :x And i could turn this into a love story , a love that has never been ,
Suddenly - Ina
We make our pacts,
We're independant.
We dump our boyfriends,
And we do our hair anyway we would like.
We figured out , that we are attractive.
And we look around,
And now we loved to live the single life.
And then we tell ourselves we’ll never fall in love again.
But then he comes around and suddenly we understand,
That we’ve never really been in love before.
And suddenly you know what all the love songs that they write are all about,
And suddenly you dont care if its right or wrong as long as he’s around,
And suddenly the things that used to sound clishe are perfectly right in your eyes.
Perfectly right with this guy.
I know its weird,
But we are connected.
And in some strange and crazy way I think,
That we have always been.
And now he’s here,
And he says he loves me.
And it feels so right,
And I could feel so good that I cant sleep at night.
But I just told myself I will not fall in love again.
But he just came around and, yeah, he made me understand,
That I have never really been in love before.
And suddenly you know what all the love songs that they write are all about,
And suddenly you dont care if its right or wrong as long as he’s around,
And suddenly the things that used to sound clishe are perfectly right in my eyes.
Perfectly right when he’s here.
And yes,
I know you might get impatient.
But look around,
He might be walking right in front of you.
And if he touches you and you feel your skin is burning.
Kisses you and you feel your stomach turning,
He’s the one,
He is the one.
And suddenly you know what all the love songs that they write are all about,
And suddenly you dont care if its right or wrong as long as your baby’s around,
And suddenly the things that used to sound clishe are perfectly right in your ears.
Perfectly right when he’s there.
Perfectly right when he’s there.
Perfectly right with this guy there
Anyways , had my very first sleepover last weekend . With Amy over at my house on Saturday night . :D Dad was overseas . And it was fun ! (Y) Been to the playground first to play , first time exercising in the neighbourhood after a very long time . Basketball was epic fun , epic love . Haha . And i'll always remember that it was me who scored the first goal ! :D And i'll never forget that : Amy throw , miss the board completely , i throw , rebound back , my bro throw , flew over the board . LOL ! The difference in energy . :x Attempted to play crocodile at the playground too . But apparently 1 person become croc then forever croc ler . Hahaha . So it was pretty failed .
The best was the night at home . :D Despite the lack of a good appetite , Mum's food was finished . Then we played with poker cards . Started with lame games , like family , which , after you got the hang of it , you'll totally pwn the game . *winks* Then we played cheat . Epic cheat . Hahha :x To make the game more fun , we randomly took out a few cards and put in joker ( so , at some point of the game you DIE DIE must cheat :P ) At first it was going fine , then suddenly me and my bro realise Amy's gonna win ! And hell , no way are we gonna let THAT happen . So we started catching her cheats and gl-ing her . Hahaha . And was she despo ! LOL ! Got this time , she was going to cheat , then she said "1 J" but she threw the card which overflipped and TADA ! We saw a "3 Diamond" . LOL ! And many a times we were going to catch her cheats , then she was like super confident and said , " open la ! open la ! " but when we reach to open the cards she snatch away all the cards . Hahahhahaa . Win .
Shared a bed cause no one wanted to sleep on the top decker . Hardly any space for two person . LOL . And we ended up talking quite late so the next day when we went school for CIP was damn tired . Almost went to the wrong gate but HALLELUJAH ! Along came Kellie in the car and we car-ed to the hostel gate . ( YESH IT'S VEH FAR ... personally ? ) Designed bags that we were going to sell in the morning ( Raise funds for AWARE ) . Haha . I think mine look like some kindergarten drawings or sth . :x And Rousha who was with us kept complaining i was veh noisy . And she said something that my granny said often , that i look like an adult but acts like a kid . *POUTS*
After designing 5 bags each , we went off to sell them . Paired up with Rousha . Was going to MRT stations to sell at first but went off to the Church near school in the end . Unforgettable experience (L) We joined in the Mass . And it was so nice i had goosebumps all over . I like the part when the church choir sing , when the people prayed and thanked Jesus ( geez . am i qualified to say his name ? :x ) . But what i love most . Ishh the aura . ♥ And the people . (L) Hahahha . They are really really generous and left us with a feeling of infinity satisfactions of our final achievements . I love CIPs like these . Learn so much from it ! So much reflection too .
Anyways , met AliciaLim and Charmaine on Thurs afternoon too . (L) Ate together then shared a cup of Tutti Frutti . Heavenly :D GL them too with all the craps "psychological tests" and traded cold jokes . Then had htht with Alicia , while we walk along the road , while we waited at the bus stop under her condo . And for more than an hour , i told her about my past year , my life in RV , things that i never thought that i would say , that i never thought that i would admit . Some things that i wouldn't care less if the whole world spread rumors about , things that i'd only want my best friend to know . The truth . And at least , if i died one day , at least my best friend knows the truth .
Secondary school life ishh like so much more complicated than primary school life . And i would tell , anyone who bothers to listen , that i think my P6 year was the peak of my childhood . Where i discover everything and changes and grow up . From a child to ... a kid . Hahaha . Kidding . :) From a child to a teen . And i learnt from guys about guys and from girls , about life . And there ishh never a day in which i never miss my primary school friends , my primary school life . For i know , no matter how happy i am now , it's just never the same like before .
I love how childhood friends always could be there . How , it could NEVER be awkward even after meeting after a bloody long time . How , we could still high-five without feeling childish , and push each other around without feeling judged . Anyways , i just want my Th5 and all my other childhood friends to know that , as i declare my love for my other friends , deep inside i never forget ANY single one of you . In fact , truth be told , i'm more afraid that you wont remember me . :/
` Despite the Monday blues , i'm looking forward to Monday ! .... Morning ;X
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not my price to pay ,
Wednesday, July 20, 2011 | 10:58 PM
Me tired . (: Quite a stressful week . But all the stressful stuffs over ler . All those crap assignments and geog test (which i think i'll definitely fail) , and Racial Harmony day . Lawls . Abit the pointless actually . The racial harmony day i meant . Different years different programmes . Year 3s were suppose to decorate their classroom according to a certain race and theme , then we present to other classes and visit other classes . P: Mind-wrecking reminiscence of what happened in the old malan campus during International Understanding day . In which it was also very disappointing and boring . :x It's not that we're not into the different race bonding thing but it's just that it's not THAT effective .
We Singaporeans are never racist but we always love a bit of fun . And this thing they put us through ishh more like forced onto us than self exploration , and in what way would it be enjoyable ? Moreover , the whole thing was like very last minute and all the decorations , informations and costume was like done the night before . :x Pity much . Yet , there were still quite a few outstanding classes that ishh very impressive . P: So all in all it was still okays . Nothing to cry about . :) But the thing ishh , we're learning about another race say , Indian , through a different race , Chinese . Dont get me wrong , i believe it's possible , and i think everyone done a great job today , :D but it's like learning about fishes from an ornithologist , if you get what i mean . It's just not the same . So ... did we achieve the goal for this activity in the first place ? It aint about what we done (... or Not done) , or how we've pulled through , and what hallelujah it's like finally over , but it all comes down to what have we gained from all this ? * blank out *
Anyways , that crossword thingy on top ? My first word was 'lovely' , then 'funny' , and 'beautiful' . At first i found it unbelievable , yesh my self-esteem ishh not as high as you think . But then my brother did the test and we both find it quite true after all . No offense , but his first word was 'fat' , then 'sad' , then 'fool' . And he himself agree ishh quite accurate . And i never knew that my brother actually emo alot der . I know i hide alot personally but i din expect my bro to take after me too . ( and of everything , take after my bad side ) :/ Oh well . Anyways , here's me telling you that it's not my loss that we're not together , it's your loss . Nevertheless , i sincerely hope you're happy everyday , :) and i'll still love you , just like how i love die all my crazy act cute friends ♥
Today got caught by Mr Chng for sleeping in class . First period only sia some more . What really upsets me ishh that , he misunderstood me for wanting to sleep in his class . Which ishh so NOT the case . I couldn't help nodding off . Mind really black out in class . During physics and occasionally english , and recently chemistry starting to too . The stuffs and notes i'm doing just suddenly wont get inside my head and my eyelids starting feeling very heavy and i cant help it but start to nod off . I DO TRY VERY HARD TO FIGHT IT OFF . :/ I just dont want anyone to think that i'm lazy or disrespectful or what . Make me feel so wronged and unrecognized for my efforts . :/
Speaking of efforts . Sally was right . After being SL , you'll think about band band band the day before , or if you get it real bad , in my case , the week before . Calling My Eugene (L) almost every other night now just to talk about percussion and double-confirming what i'm doing and stuffs . I really love how he's there for me , and though i know i'm so paranoid i get irritating at times he never shows it and still pei me talk and never hang up till i make the first move to say bye . AWWWW ♥ Anyways , school de NDP coming . Very stressed cause i'm a freaking green horn and had Zile and Sally not be there on Tuesday i would have had a heart attack and died . Was like so lost but still trying to look confident . Lawls . 3 CHEERS FOR SENIORS (Y) . Hope you liked the tee , i love it sia ! :x
Many a times i would love to figure out what you're thinking . Who you're putting first . You love me ? Or her ? Or youself . Then after a while i gave up , thinking i'm thinking too much . But after a split second , i started thinking all over agains . Well , whoever that say girls are more complicated than guys apparently haven't met you .
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when there's no love ,
Sunday, July 17, 2011 | 11:35 AM
Was talking about leaders , talking about faith . Why the importance of all that all of a sudden ? Me worried . Seniors step down . And they chose me to be the new SL . Omg right . Why me . Why the time when i feel myself changing , feeling myself closing down , myself cheating reality , my energy melting into nothingness . And now , like a big wave like i cant never subside , it's all coming down to me . I'm scared . I'm very scared . .... But i'll keep my promise to the world that i'll be alright and i'll make everything better than alright . Pray for me will ya . (:
Responsibility ishh like a rock . It cans weigh you down or drag you behind . But after writing so many essays and stories , it's second nature to me now to think that there's two side of a coin to everything . A rock cans be a burden , but at the same time , you cans stand on the rock , looking higher , further . And growing up seems to make you have a third eye or sth , letting you see things from perspectives you've never think about when you're younger . Like a rock , responsibilities cans pull you "down to earth" , making you more sensible , realistic and more level headed . Such board topics that i have totally no mood to touch on today .
School ishh a drag . :/ Maths becoming a problem agains recently . Think i need to go maths remedial agains . Couldn't really grasp the topic at all . And lawls . I cant get the help i use to have ler . Thinking about this makes me wonder how tragic it ishh when people just come and go in your life . Does it works both ways ? Or ishh it always a one sided pain ? Gahhh . feeling very unsettled today , mind keeps wondering around from one topic to another without really getting anything done . :/ Alot on my mind . I just cant put them into words . Oh and P.S , contrary to popular and obvious beliefs , i am not emo-ing tyvm . :)
` And i just wanna leave everything behind and watch the world go by ,
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wtf am i doing ,
Saturday, July 16, 2011 | 6:17 PM
I could always find words to describe myself , words to analyse the situation , songs to describe my feelings , quotes that say my emotions , but it had been quiet . I feel so so cold . Hate such indifferent feelings ttm . I either say things i dont mean or build silence around me that stings . I want to know what's wrong . Need to find out what's wrong . They say , " The most difficult phrase of your life ishh not when no one understands you . It's when , you dont understand yourself . " and personally , it's really messy inside there . Inside me .
"Nobody's Home"
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
Have always wanted to try writing a autobiography using third person narration ( where each and every character is referred to by the narrator as "he" , "she" , "it" , or "they" , but never as "I" or "we" (first-person) , or "you" (second-person) ) . Like the song "Nobody's Home" . The lyrics wrote "she" , but it could jolly well be the singer referring to her own emotions even if the noun wasn't "i" . .... If you get what i mean . But stories like this , you cant hear from other people's point of view which ishh why at the same time i dont really like it . I enjoy novels where they share the female lead's thoughts and then the male lead's feelings . And it's always the guy's actions that made me cry in de end .
Okays . Teh ah no emo now . :D Alot of bandsmen kept telling me , 哭了就过了 , cry and move on , learn and move on . Basic knowledge , common sense , something we face in life everyday . But how many of us just cry and got up , stumbled and get back to square one ? .... Not me . P: Have faith have faith . Faith . Such a beautiful word . 5 letters , my favourite no. , so beautifully brought together , sound so pleasing coming out from the mouth , not just a word , but a sound . Always have faith . Especially in yourself . ♥
Recently doing some chi compo shit . The kind where you have to discuss different values . Why ishh this value important , what ishh it's advantages / disadvantages , how to cultivate this value , examples to support your point etcetc. Sounds easy , just that it's in chinese ._. And the topic we have ishh "what values ishh important for a student leader" , recently de Champs lesson also talking about this leadership stuffs . Year 1 and year 2 also got listen till tired alr . My ans was .... nahh . gonna keep it for the next time . :x
FIRST TIME TOUCHING A DSLR TODAY ! (Y) Awesome ttm experience . Totally want one now . Photography ishh amazing . Let me try to recall what the guy said ... a photo ishh an image and graphy ishh a english suffix that describes the arts , so simply put , photography ishh an expression of art through the photos . Okays i'm being retarded . What i'm just trying to mean ishh that photography ishh a form of Art . Art with a capital A ! It's not something you cans describe easily . Anyways , i had a great time capturing the moments with the DSLR they lent us . If only i had all the time in the world to go around with that amazing camera and explore and see for myself what i cans get . Sigh . So gonna join the photography club in year 4 . :x
Oh and yours truly went to watch Transformer 3 with Kellie (L) at the JP cinema ytd night . Last minute after band prac . Ended veh late . And we had the front row . AH such HONORS . :/ There was so much actions and we're so not used to the blasting sounds that everything was just like spinning spinning and had no idea what was happening half the time . Trying hard not to feel that it was a waste of money or a waste of time when we could have watched the new harry potter movie which screens at the same time instead . Lawls .
COINCIDENTALLY , there was this part , where Optimus Prime ( and in case you dunno , he's the leader of the autobots ) told the male lead of the movie , to have faith . To have faith in themselves when their support ishh gone . To have faith that they cans stand on their on feet . To have faith even if the whole world ishh going against you . So reflecting my current situation and feeling of desperation . Post next time . :)
" You give me the kind of feelings people write novels about . "
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that part of me ,
Monday, July 11, 2011 | 6:27 PM
I wish you could drink your words and realize how bitter they taste (:
Had a hectic past week . Had two tests in one day last Friday . Physics and English . Just gotten back the physics paper today . 7/10 . (Y) But i could have done better cause 5 mins before the test , our teacher actually went through the important part ( First and second Newton's Law ) agains but i never listen properly and din memorize what he said ! Or else could have done better . And full marks was within my reach had i read the qns correctly . Cause i forgot to convert the values uhh . The paper gave us in kilometers per hours , ans in meters per second and yours truly neglected that important much part . :/
English paper was right after physics paper and had no mood to do the paper AT ALL . And apparently it's not easy cause many people complained it afterwards . Cans pass bah i think . Have yet to come across any disappointing grades in the new semester . :) oh ya , mentioned in this previous post about this chinese presentation ? Got 17.5/20 . Yeah baby . :D
Been out agains for the weekends . Had band practise on Saturday and went to watch SparkWinds perform at Esplanade on Sunday (L) . Awesome ttm . Their music was so nice it kept giving me the goosebumps ! And some part was so soothing i almost fell asleep . And many a times i found myself moving uncontrollably along to the music . And yes , that's how good they sounded . Hate sitting beside Chiayilong though . Who spoilt the mood at random intervals . Annoying much tyvm . :P
Memorable time with the RV and Yuhua Percussion after the concert . Went to Marina Square and had Mac , the only place which we see as big enough to fit ALL of us . Went to buy a cake for Sally . Had a hard time looking around . In the end got a cookie and cream ice-cream cake from Swensens . And it was epic cause they dont provide knief and we had to walk to John Little to get a steel knife . Cause apparently , normal plastic knife cant cut through their cakes . LOL .
Playful Yuhua Perc went to play with the dry ice , and froze up the green tea . Then they teased Sally and spread cake all over her face and hair . Thinking it's not enough , Shamin went to on to wipe the cake onto Sally's dress . If i were Sally , i would kill all of them . Lawls . Literally . Seriously . Capricorns like me cant take jokes up to some point and i would just walk off pretending i'm not angry but giving THE attitude all the same . :X but Sally was a good sport and even went on to joke about having "skin treatment" . And from now on , cookies and cream ice cream had a new meaning to me . :P
Went to join the Saxophones after leaving perc . Which i've done for two consecutive days . :x Joined them for lunch at mac ( agains right ? i know ) on Saturday after band too . I personally think their year 1s are better . For at least they replied and not only LAUGH when i talk to them . And they dont suddenly go quiet when i go near them like i'm so kind of plaque or sth and if they open their mouth when i'm around they'll like catch AIDS or sth ? ._. Not only ishh Saxo de juniors not bad . Senior not that bad too . Hahaha . Nice to look at and easy to be with . Good company all in all . And it seems like i've bond with them more than my own section that day . :/
I had so many stuffs on my mind , so many weights to carry , all i could hope for ishh someone to understand . Starting to think and set goals alot more and after thinking about all these stuffs , i worry about getting them done . Recently , had not been able to achieve much and kept having this feeling that i've many important things to do but i just dunno and cant rmb what's to be done . Stressed out much . And you . You were no help .
I feel like accepting you , embracing you but at the same time , i want to push you away , i want to hurt myself to hurt you . If god doesn't forbid , i dont mind taking my life just to hear what you would say to me on my deathbed . And yesh , that's how serious it ishh . I want to say bye to you over and over just to make you cry agains . I want to slap you in the face one moment , and say ily the next moment . I want to have countless number of flings , to make you jealous , to make you sad , to make you disappointed . I want to make you regret for leaving me and going out with another girl . I want to disappear and make you search for me like a desperate fish seeking for the last drop of water on the Earth . For that's what you're doing to me now .
But no . God forbids . For i am a good girl who take my tears to bed . For the harder it's hurting me , the harder i'll laugh . For i know , that everyone else in the world , and esp you , had better things to do , more important stuffs to worry about , than me . For no matter how much i hate you , part of me still wants you to be happy , that part of me who will reluctantly go home after camping outside your house when you said you're busy , that part of me who will press cancel instead of sent after typing a msg filled with stuffs that i know would hurt you , that part of me who swallow it all and wish you all the best . I heard from that other part of me that she want to commit suicide de other day but after i gave her my permission , she said that actually , she wasn't ready to go .
I love you ? And it's now more of a question than a statement .
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big or small , lies are lies ,
Monday, July 4, 2011 | 4:05 PM
Was discussing RV people with Amy the other day . Well , maybe not only that day , but well , we were talking . Talking . Not . Gossiping . I repeat . NOT gossiping . (: Even if we do wanna gossip , i've nothing to say cause i'm not updated with RV stuffs blahhblahh and Amy ishh new . But that stupid girl , yesh i've just downgraded you to the same level as that amphibian for this current moment cause i'm upset with you , bu anyways , as i was saying , that stupid girl was digging out my secrets and my past (agains) , which led me to recall back a lot of stuffs . SO yeah . This ishh a blog post dedication . (:
Charmaine (L)
Well , this ishh partly your birthday message too yeah . :x Of everyone , i think i owe you the most favors . ( i think this ishh a much repeated point ) Although i feel very distanced from you now , i know that in times of need , i cans still count on you . Idk why , although i never do anything for you , like , i din have time for you , and when i text i replied slow and gives retarded one word msg ( which i realise i seem to be doing to my closer friends . lawls . haish . ) you never stop believing in my love for you . I guess that's what good about friends from your childhood eh ?
We came such a long way , we got so used to having each other in our lives , ( even if it doesn't mean being right beside , ) i know you're out there and you SHOULD KNOW that i'm out here for you . Of everyone i know , including myself , i know your life better than i know mine . Idk it in the i feel it , gone through it myself way , but i know what you've to go through , how you are much better than the rest even if others cant see it . Although it seems like i'm giving excuses for you somethings , i know that many a times , you cant help it . You cans be ....
A Tree . You din chose to be there , someone plant you there , but you still stood strong against the many storms that blow against you . You kept silent , you bury your pain in your roots , but the many incident and hurts scar you , inward and outward . As a tree , you were never hollow , you're filled with many colourful emotions . Like a tree , you stood there , never really closely studied by others , but you stood there and grew and hold your talents and secret save within you . Like a tree , you provided shade for others along the way , your friends , from the little "insects" around to the humans who walked by , you gave what you cans which we took for granted .
If you are the tree and God let me chose what to be , i'll be the wind . Constantly by your side . I would like to be , a gentle breeze . Maybe you wont be able to see me , but i cans watch you grow . Dance in the leaves of your trees , listen to the secrets you wish to share and blow your pain out of you . And then , i'll have all the time in the world to make sure you're save . If any dangers try to threaten you , i would be a roaring wind , blowing them , preventing them from uprooting you .
But you see , i'm not the wind and you're not a tree , so we have to take life as it ishh to be . But even if you're not a tree , never forget that you are solid like one . Solid like how my love ishh for you . People change , and maybe my love for you change too , but nevertheless . ILY no matter what . (L)
Your birthday message : " Every year , every day , i want you to never regret your day . Happy belated birthday . "
Went to Queensway yesterday with Kellie . A kinda last minute plan cause actually i wanted to camp at home der . STH that i will remember FOR LIFE . So we went onto the bus tgt , and she had her hands full and cannot hold onto any poles so she went to a corner of the bus to camp . Then i stood at the door , silently thinking i'm a obstacle in the bus that was filled with oh so many people . We were suppose to either get off at the next stop or the next next and , thinking we have amazing telepathy , we din agree on what stop to get off first . So i went off at the next stop , ONLY TO TURN AROUND and find her laughing at me in her that little corner ! and i got off at a very ulu place , hence , looking like a retard . HALLELUJAH ! GRRRRR .
We dropped by at the old RV campus for a while too . Stunned by the many changes there . Rmb all the memories people tell me about , all the moments i lived there . Emotional much stuffs . :x But when i was studying there , i din go out much with my group of friends from school . I choose to go out with you . So , when everyone else socialize , i was there lying in your bed , spending what i thought would be my whole life with you . Lawls . Some days i regret not going out with other friends more , but some days , days like this , i wish you're still here with me . :/
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off for a ride ,
Sunday, July 3, 2011 | 2:33 PM
Was talking about teachers in my previous post . Din have much good example then . But now , I want to thank two new teachers I met this year , my physics and form teacher (Mr Chan) and my maths teacher (Mr Chng) for the year 2011 . Firstly , Mr Chng . I was one of the failed in maths one . All thanks to weak foundation in year 2 . But Mr Chng was very patience with me and even came back during the holidays at my call for help in the new topic I missed out when I went Fujian . Then during school terms , in his classes , and even after schools , he will help me and watch out for me . Thanks Mr Chng , I’ll get an A1 STAR in maths for you ! ♥ ( Corrections , for me ! thanks to you ! )
And Mr Chan , my this year form teacher . Lawls . Found out in my recent years that my form teachers always never seem to fail to know of my family problems . Gahhh . Okays , I side tracked . But anyways , I wanted to thank Mr Chan for coming back yesterday , on Saturday morning to revise with me (and Amy(L) and Shiyu) physics . I think I was very cheeky and a bit distracted but you’re very very patience with me and answered all our questions one by one . Much more confident about physics now . :D Thanks so much . Oh and btw , you don’t owe me a meal for that silly MC thing . For you gave me a chance to shine onstage . I should be the one paying shouldn’t I ?
Anyways , after physics consultation yesterday , was supposedly going for piano until my teacher cancelled it at the last minute . Went for CIP at Chinatown with Amy instead . THE MOST SLACK CIP EVER . It was suppose to be 2 hours , but it felt like it only lasted for like , 15 minutes . LOL . But was still very tired . Cause I went to Amy with Dhoby Ghaut after lunch at JP . Then we tried on clothes at Espirit at Singapura Plaza . Laughed like mad hyenas in the same cubicle for idk how long . And (NO OFFENSE HOR , ishh compliment !) I think Amy really do have a hot body ! Only that she never do anything to enhance it or show it off . Not like me . Lawls . Had I have that body ... ehhh .... :x heee . Omg I’m so slutty .
Anyways , CIP only had me , her , Danny , Simo and this random guy from 3B . Hahaha . Introduced Koi to them and passed onto them the shopping disease and left them shopping at Chinatown while me and Amy went off to explore Redhill . And guess what . We ended up going into a condo which we don’t know off and no one we knows lives there . .... At first . THEN , Amy found out Tian Hao lives there last night . LOL ! Talk about coincidence . But anyways , we got in and got out by following ppl through the side gate . LOL . Played at the pool and playground for a while then went off .
Trainned home . Well , kinda . Kept getting on and off the train and walking from one end to the other . Got on at Redhill , got off at commonwealth , went back to redhill , then finally trained home after that . Spent more than 3 bucks on public transport today when it normally only took 58 cents . :/ LOL . Wait . Why am I talking about MRT rides when the more important part was the cip . So I went around the blocks at Chinatown today . The flats there are like those houses you see in the Channel 8 shows about those poor elderly and disabled in their messy one-room-flats . Idk how they survive there . The nights are probably exceptionally scary , lonely , terrifying , dark , and cold . I’m glad , I made them smile .
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Saturday, July 2, 2011 | 8:54 PM
First week back to school . One of the most slack weeks ever . Self-intro of new teachers , teachers on leave , free study period , no homework other than a few minor tests , (AND overdue school homework) , etc.etc. Thursday still my most disliked day . :x Always feel extra moodless on thurs since idk when . Don’t really have any favourite days now , new timetable kinda sucks and now having oralcy , have to stay longer in school on wed , my ex-favourite day of the week . :/
Speaking of oralcy , it wasn’t as horrible as what I’ve heard from others . ( But it’s just the first day la uhh . ) It’s like the presentation skills classes we had in year 1 and 2 , the instructors are like forever very zihigh and says almost the same stuffs over and over . Focusing on body language currently . I think I’m quite okays in body language , I cans look and sound confident and (currently) dont have any weird habits / gestures . But my biggest weakness ishh my hands , which have this amazing ability to shake ever so vigorously when I’m up on stage . GRRRRR . Learnt a new fact that day , do you know , that when you’re lying , your eyes tend to move / twitch a little to the left ? :x
Speaking of presentations , had my first chi presentation on Friday . Opening was horrible . Wasn’t so nervous but kept reading a few words wrong then got very nervous until halfway when I got better . Yes . And my hand did its “thing” agains and were like shivering shivering up there in front of everyone . :/ One thing I’m most proud of in my presentations are the eye contacts I made up there . Made it a point to look into almost everyone’s eyes even if it means me stumbling upon my speech ( but of cause , I never ever stumble that badly . Tripped maybe , but I never fall .) and , looking into everyone's eyes , ishh something , I'll never forget ♥
Speaking of teachers , had a new Chinese and Singapore Studies teacher this term . Thank god no more changes . New Chinese teacher ishh more fun in a way , less sarcastic yesh , but I think she think she not up to standard or too slack or sth so every time we see her . She tends to get more and more fierce . :/ And new SS teacher even worse . His hair loss ishh nothing compared to his lack of passion for teaching . Rumored to be one of those pon-class teachers , he wasted more than enough time in the past few classes and apparently “teach” , (DO, note the quotation marks for the ‘teach’) , for the sake of that pathetic 1 hour 45 mins per week he has with us . SS was one of my A1 subject , dear God , with the big G , please don’t let me fail it . Hallelujah . :x
Oh , speaking of Hallelujah . It’s one of my new frequently spoken words . ( at times , with sarcasm ) , and interestingly , it ishh quite a religious word according to my SHORT research just now . Used more for the Jews and Christians , but in modern English , "Hallelujah" is frequently spoken to express happiness that a thing hoped or waited for has happened. (credits to Wikipedia) . And with this , I end today’s post , Hallelujah ? :P
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