I am forced by the passing of time, the transition of life stages, and the expectations of society to grow up and to behave like a "grown-up" (whatever that would constitute). But here, I would just be a little childish, a little self-centered, a little irresponsible, a little too honest but also a little too pretentious.

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Kept all my past posts intact because my past was what made me, me. Deleting them doesn't change who I am so I revisit my memories sometimes, to learn and to laugh at my past mistakes.

(Just kidding, I revert some posts to drafts because I'm utterly embarrassed.)


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Designed by: Ahting

Actually have been wanting to blog for the past few days alot but was too lazy to . So here's a quick summary about the past week from where i've left of . Had wanted to blog about ReVel Fest from last friday but now the emotions are gone , the memories a blur but i remembered the cheers , the screams , the awe i had for those on stage , the annoyance of the unjustified results but well , those emotions are gone and all i remembered was that i had a great time . (Photo from that night btw) Had dinner at Pepper Lunch with the 4J peeps too . Cherished time *imagine hearts floating and flooding the air* :)

" She wont find out , that's the point of lying " - Megamind

Sudden quote there because MegaMind ishh showing on Channel 5 on sunday night . I love movies with inspirational and relatable quotes . Speaking of movies , as compared to last year , i've been watching very little movies this year . Last year i watch nearly a movie a week but this year i've only watched three movies so far (from my memory) . One was Les Miserable (with Shumin) and the other two was Iron Man 3 (with Brangelina) on monday and The Great Gatsby (with Jiahui) which i've watched on thursday . I think the movie that made me do the most reflection was The Great Gatsby . And i really think Leonardo DiCaprio (geez even his name sound like some branded goods LOL) seriously looks damn good in the show . Normally i think movies are too long and moving too slowly due to my ADHD issues but his charm glued my butt to the seat and my eyes onto the screen .

" You're waiting for a train. A train that will take you far away. You know where you hope this train will take you; but you don't know for sure. But it doesn't matter. How can it not matter to you where that train will take you ? .... Because you'll be together. " - Inception

He was also the lead for Inception which was why i have the sudden quote there . It's one of the most popular quote from the movie and there's still chills just by registering it into your brain . Lawls . Anyways i dont watch movies just because the actors look good (okays that was not entirely true) but it's important for a movie to have a great plot . Gatsby left me breathless because it had my favorite kind of opening and closing . Which ishh when the scene that appeared in the beginning , appeared in the end but it still make sense and give a proper closure . The scene that i was referring to ishh when Leonardo DiCaprio was standing at the end of the port , reaching out for the green light that was across the bay . .... Did i mention how charming Leonardo DiCaprio looks in his white suit ? :) The post ishh gonna take longer than usual to finish because i'm getting distracted by Leonardo DiCaprio's photos online . LOL


Anyways , yesterday went with Kelloy to Scape for an interview for NDP CIP . I really hope i'd get in so badly omg . But i got a bad feeling about the interview . As i hear myself answering , i dont feel like myself . .... My replies were too ... politically correct . I expected the questions , but i wasnt able to find the answers that would satisfy myself . But now when i think about it , i should have said the truth no matter how childish it sound . I din listen to myself and i din said what my heart truly felt and when they ask , "So why do you want to join ?" , my heart said , (which i din listen to , mind you) "because i've been wanting to be a part of the NDP organisation ever since i saw the volunteers when i was in Primary 5 , coming for the NDP preview" and instead my mouth babbled out "i want a new experience for national day" . Ah well , too late for regrets i guess ?

Anyways , after feeling not quite myself after the interview , went shopping around town with kelloy . Super happy with what i bought !! Retail theraphy never fails when you get good bargains and have got cash . :D Feeling extraordinarily happy with my new Hello Kitty phone cover which i got for 5 bucks ! Totally not expecting such a cute cover to exist for Samsung Ace P: Got a new watch with kelloy which was 3 for $10 and i love how it's vintage-ish and non-mainstream *Grin getting wider* But i wonder how long it'll last . LOL and i wonder when i will get bored of it .... :/ And this ishh gonna be de millionth time of me saying ， that i'm someone with only a brief period of enthusiasm (五分钟热度) . Anyway , really wanna thank Kelloy for the great day spent in town P:


And speaking of 五分钟热度 , had this new resolution to incorporate essay writing into blogging . Wanted to challenge an essay question every week or maybe twice a week (since it's the june holidays anyways) . Objective ishh to train myself to write argumentative essays after receiving the shock of the truly general general questions of the General Papers (A Levels) . The test was on Thursday , and we had two papers , one was essay the other was comprehension . Essay had 12 questions to chose from and having not studied at all , i chose this question : " Sports should be all about winning . Discuss . " Did a really bad job but i guess i deserve to fail cause i have been finding excuses not to study and stuffs ... My standard was that of a sec 1 i think . OMG .

Anyways , other than that question , i had wanted to do this : " Dreams are only for the foolish . Discuss . " But i thought about how others ishh gonna come up with quotes and examples wayyyy better than mine (which would make my essay look even more like a sec one's essay) so in de end i din chose that question . Was extremely thankful to the God that blessed me during the exam cause i din have writer's block during the test . P: But even though i wrote quite alot (personally think it's alot) , i think i'm just "smoking" and crapping my way through the essay . D: Anyways , yes i will write that essay question (maybe even one narrative style and one argumentative style for that "dreams" essay question) next time ! Okays maybe later . Must see how this post ishh gonna head to first .

Anyways , after the General Papers , we had econs lecture make up . Gahhh two hours of i-could-have-been-celebrating-in-town torture . :( But well , i wasn't the most ke lian one seeing how some have YLead (some event by RV which if i elaborate , will lead me to talking about AYLC and i will end up digressing . Speaking of which i MUST blog about AYLC one day . Wanted to talk about the people i met but i haven't wrote about it as indepth-ly as i hope to yet . HAIS i just digressed ! T.T) and had to stay back and some even have cca though school supposedly already ended by 1pm !) Anyways , got back my econs paper and got second highest in class , still failed so ... nothing to cheer about but i think it's the best paper this term for me . LOL


Hahaha an economical pick up line . LOL Which ishh gonna to lead me to telling how i spent the next day (Vesak Day) in Jcube with Kaiwen , Brangelina , Miaoye and Waihong filming a video for econs . Actually had a storyline which was a triangle love story but it does not meet the criteria from the teachers so we ended up filming some story about price discrimination starring branglina . (because teh ah ishh getting old and gotta retire) LOL . Shouldn't disclose any more information here for the fear that others might no longer find the video interesting of they already know what's gonna happen . But i gotta say , all our attention span has no existence and we also got a new game with brangelina which i've now officially name , "Abandoned" in which she ishh the star . IYGWIM . LOL . The other game ishh "Treasure Hunt" and bascially the treasure includes stuffs like her wallet , phone , water bottle , well it should be self-explanatory . LOL

Anyways , we got distracted by stuffs like Happy Meal's toy , hilarious people in Jcube's Ice Rink (seriously very amusing to look at the people LOL) , clothes etc. Shopping for clothes with Waihong ishh highly entertaining if you ask me . He look like he might just try on the dresses if the staffs permits . Confession : sometimes i even find it hard to see him as a guy . No offense intended , he just feel too much like a sista . LOL Met up with HuiMin halfway to get some papers and marker from her . And i had wanted to mug maths with her (even carried around the heavy notes for the whole morning omg but) in de end i went home . Old teh ah no longer a party animal (amy always call me a party animal whenever i go out) .

As i'm writing and thinking about it , the current social circle i'm in ishh totally unexpected for me . If you tell me maybe a year ago , that i would be close friends with these people , i would roll my eyes and say , "ya right" . (SOMEHOW i got a feeling that this ishh a mutual feeling for them too LOL!) But gosh , i'm really glad i chose this combi and made this group of friends (which also expanded my social circle) . P: Although it's not the JC life i've in mind when i was a P6 student , not the JC life i was hoping for when i was a Sec 4 student , but in RV , i wouldn't have it any other way . P: Although i still have loads to do about this new , awaken and bottomless stomach of mine .... I know i have been talking about it alot but it's seriously becoming a serious issue . LOL


Please dont ask me what's with all the letting go pictures . LOL . But it links doesn't it ?! From talking about the Gatsby scene of the hand reaching out to the light , to the photo of the hands barely holding on and yet not letting go , to this photo . And letting go ishh never my forte . Been having this I-DONT-EVEN-KNOW-WHAT-WE-ARE-ANYMORE relationship with this "friend" (yeah i save his contact in my phone as "Friend" so if someone ever ask , "who are you texting?" i cans answer "friend" LOL Literally . And no need for explanation because i think it should be obvious enough...?) And recently , i dont even know if it's love anymore or am i just used to being with him like this and it's becoming a bad habit . Sooner or later i think it will become something like me not knowing myself anymore ...

Anyways , he made me lunch and came to my house the other day . Bad idea i know . Any friend of mine (damn the word friend just sound confusing now doesn't it ? but i'm referring to my girlfriends here) would talk me out of it , not that they will succeed . But i'm like that . I know i'm not supposed to , that it aint good for me . That in de end , i'm gonna end up hurting myself more instead . That after he left i'm gonna be more empty and sad and lonely than i was before . That my house ishh gonna carry more memories of him and how i will be reminded of him more , like , he sat in this chair and what he commented about this and that , which i will remember when i see my stuffs , and then i will think of him and miss him more .

Yeah well , this ishh a side of me i will seldom let people see . But i suppose you cans call me obsessive . But sometimes my indifference scares me . Like many a times i will give up or maybe it's more of a "i surrender" thing . Idk if i'm more afraid of him moving on first or me finally finding someone but in de end goes back to him . I've enough of the latter i swear . But for now , STUDIES COME FIRST . This emptiness , i cans live with it for now . I guess . This ugliness too . Why ugliness you ask ? Well , i always believe that " a girl in love ishh a pretty girl " and right now , especially the past few days , i just can't be bothered with my appearance anymore . Dont worry , no suicidal thoughts yet :)


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