she's what i want to be ,
Tuesday, November 22, 2011 | 5:04 PM
Din really finish posting de other day . Still had a lot to say actually . Just shortly summarizing up my holidays up to this point . :D first week of holidays were devoted to CCAs and homework , second week was all for CCA , third week had a lot of fun playing , concert , class chalet , and USS trip . P: This ishh already the fourth week and i plan to finish my homework . :X next week ishh my CIPs week then having CCAs the week after . And there goes my time for part-time-working . :/
Anyways , that was the USS (Universal Studios Singapore) photo you see up there . Went with my father , brother , Amy and Jiahui (L) . Went last year with my dad and bro but that time the Battlestar Galactica (roller coaster) was down for renovation . So .... That day , after that ride , every ride felt like a stroll in the park . :X So to have maximum pleasure , it ishh advised to those who have yet to go to take other rides first before tackling the Battlestar Galactica . Cause after taking that , other rides like no feel , no kick ler . But of cause , if wait until last then take that ride , maybe by then no guts ler . ;p
Actually i was hoping my dad , Amy and Puipui have more fun . Cause well , the two girls are so-called guests and if they never had fun i will forever be feeling remorseful , wasting their money and all . :/ But felt most guilty towards my dad . :/ He spent this huge amount of money , and accompanied us to make sure we dont get into trouble or meet with any danger but he himself was unable to enjoy any rides due to his fear for heights . Wish i could have somehow help him to be more happy . Haish .
He was saying the other day , the day when i was going class chalet , before i went out . How he turn down this job that offers a high pay but ishh all the way in China just to take care of me and my brother . When i was younger , ungrateful me was like , walao why never go ... go ler make my days happier and more free . But then , now that i'm older , and see more of the world . Well ... not that much , but enough to make me reconsider this situation and my views now . Cause i saw , how some teenagers felt neglected by their parents and were like all alone at home , with no one to
Suddenly thought about this . Life ishh like a kite . Yes truly now that i think about it . :P Some of us , wanted to be freed from the ropes that tie us down . While others , long to have a rope to keep them to their roots . When you're not tied down , you have the freedom , but when you're tied down , you know you are wanted , somehow , somewhere , by someone . Anyways , just for plain entertainment , i drew that myself so do pardon me for the lousy quality . :/ But my point ishh , everything comes with a price . So while on a journey for something that you want badly ( e.g. freedom ) , you might be forgetting something else that's far more important .
Okays ... maybe the quality ishh like real bad .... LOL . Maybe if i'm not so desperately trying to put my point across people would understand it better ? :x Hmmm . Anyways , shall talk about class chalet . This year both my 2K and 3J de chalet dates are 16 to 18 Nov . LOL . Talk about coincidence . But only went on the 17 cause other days weren't free . My first time to a chalet and it's like what i always see on FB . Those photos of the places i mean . But it was a pity that both the chalet didn't have BBQ cause they concluded that there wasn't enough people to split the money and get the food .
Half the time during chalet i was worrying about crossing the paths of the many ahbengs and ahlians there . And i finally see why my dad was always so worried about me whenever i go out . Of course , i'm not that dense to go mess with them but you'll never know when one of them decides to pick on you . Many a times i couldn't quite figure out the mindsets of this generation's teenage gangsters . And i actually find it quite scary . Here goes a confession : Everytime i walk by ah lians or bengs , deep inside , i fear that i would somehow offend them and they might do something to me . But of cause , yours truly ishh too stubborn to show it . :)
Okaysokays , going back to the chalet part , despite it all , still had quite a lot of fun . P: Been mostly to the 2K one cause very long never see the people there ler , good time to bond and catch up with them although kept having this remorse and guilt leaving 3J behind . Anyways , was trying to spook everyone out during the chalet but i think i was the most spooked-out one though i din show it . And in de end , only Zhixun knows that i was really scared myself ( and coincidentally , Zhixun was the one i was trying to scare the most .___. ) Anyways , when others comment how zai i am at hiding my secrets and erm .. " stuffs " i actually find it very much of a compliment and take pride in it . LOL :x
Was just blog-hopping , twitter-walking and back to feeling how much i envy other people's life . Though i know how wonderful my life already this . There's this envy that you somehow couldn't help but feel when you saw others leading the life you wanna have . But recently , nowadays i kept worrying about my future . It's just that i've always taken it for granted that i'll go to the university of my choice , graduate , then get a job that i'm interested in , make my parents proud and everything falls neatly into place one day ( have i already said this before ? :/ ) But now , i worry about . ... How . How am i gonna make everything falls neatly into place ?
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