if you had told me ,
Wednesday, November 9, 2011 | 8:23 PM
Yeah . Yours truly now has 3 ear holes . And the left ear continues to be a virgin . :x anyways finally pierced the bottom one on HSK day . The unforgettable 3rd day of September . Oh and I got 266 / 300 for HSK . Through comparison with my friends I thought I did quite well , then heard the scholars got like what 280+ , 290+ . Mood trashers . D: Oh and I realize the last time I blogged was like weeks ago . And in the blink of an eye , it’s the holidays already . Blink one more time , holiday over . D:
Been doing a bit of holiday homework here and there , but recently mostly busy with CCA . Well , like always . P: Been wanting to do a whole lot of CIP but 2 weeks passed with me clocking in nothing . D: Was being emotional de other day and had some random conversations playing out in my mind while I was showering . Aka my thinking time . Scenes were of form teachers talking to me outside class during champs .
Mrchan : So how are you recently ?
Xinying : Okays bah .
Mrchan : … So… your parents got say anything about your results ?
Xinying : Haven’t tell them yet .
Mrchan : … You okays mah ? … With your results ?
Xinying : Ya .
Mrchan : … You got anything to say ?
Xinying : About what ?
Mrchan : okays neverminds .
郑老师 : 你最近还好吗？
Xinying : 就这样咯
老师 : …成绩还满意吗？
Xinying : 还可以
老师 : 你平常不是很多话说的
Xinying : 平常的经验告诉我说什么也是白说
And Idk how she might reply to that . Do I sound like I am closing up . I feel like I am . Well . Okays maybe I’m not but I want to . Idk why am I emo-ing , that cold and distanced feeling , when there’s nothing wrong with my life . …….. Okays … this might be freaky but now that I’m feeling better , here’s how it’ll really go had I not been being emotional .
Mrchan : So how are you recently ?
Xinying : Not bad . … Oh my mum buy for me new clothes recently . I think very nice . Omgomg cant wait to wear them . Aiya but wait till New Year then wear better . I going back Malaysia celebrate new year I think . OH you know this coming New year is in late January sia . Quite early . Oh my birthday January 15 . Mr chan you how old ?
Mrchan : Okayokay don’t talk about this . Your parents got say anything about your results ?
Xinying : Eh…. My dad say cans do better . But my mum quite excited cause I told her I got improve . Cause year 1 eoy I got 2.9 , Year 2 ishh 3.0 now 3.2 , I tell her next year I want 3.5 then she like very excited for me also . :D I also very excited . …. LOL later in the end no motivation to study then gg .
Mrchan : Okayokay good . Go back go back . I need to talk to other people .
Okays yeah . basically I talk like that to the teachers half the time and once and start I find it hard to stop . Maybe cause I wanna talk to adults since I don’t get the chance to often at home ? Idk . But apparently SOME teachers find it irritating and don’t bother to hide their annoyance . (: Try having a scarred childhood jerk . Like I wanna turn to teachers to talk . That sounds so uncool . But argh that’s what I do . :/
Oh was just thinking in the showers the other day ….. yes thinking in the hold toilet again . T.T About how I love having my counseling session with the school counselor but how , some of my friends who really needed the counseling hate talking to the counselor to the maximum . ( okays that feels weird typing that whole word out ) But anyways , I find it hard to comprehend how people think sometimes . It just feels so good to have someone to talk to , someone to listen to you for FREE , but you just have to build a wall around you like you did to everyone else ? Seriously man , it doesn’t get better than this .
I used to keep everything to myself too . Those kind of hyper 24/7 in school go home break down and cry . There was this period when things got so serious … hahhaha I cans still see the picture of me emoing and looking out of the window , tears running down my face and feeling sorry for myself . …. Aww... so cute…. ….. and dumb . ._. There’s this quote that says : “ For every minute that you spent feeling sad , you’ve wasted a minute of which you could have been happy . ” Speaking like such a positive guru yo ! P:
Oh . watched Love Guru on channel 5 the other day . LOL . Even better than the morning Sunday shows on channel 8 by the local kids . Okays I was being sarcastic and I way prefer the latter . ( Currently addicted to this 快乐火柴 *gushgush* ) They’re so cute gosh . :x Compared to those kids acting in the variety shows who don’t even dare to look into the camera , they’re professionals ! :D And gosh are they adorable ! But still a long way to go compared to other overseas kids actors though . P:
Okays I’ve been typing for so long but have got like nothing constructive . Like I see others blog and share their views about the recent happenings of the world or in Singapore , like the recent teenager girl who slapped her mum and was like wheeeeeeeeeeee about the whole thing . …. Bet there’s a lot others who does that too but never declare nia .
I was tempted to sometimes , hit my mum I mean . Then she just had to look so cute ( yes I think my mum ishh cute in a way . gosh . idk why but she gives me that feeling . I think people like Amy , Isabelle , and Charmaine , whoever that interacted with my mum when they come my house will agree lor . ) :X Man… ishh this love ? hahahha . That sounds .. urgh *shivershiver* but quoting another quote , “ Love when you’re ready , not when you’re lonely . ”
Applies to everything we do in life . You face your emotion when you’re ready for it , not when it’s heated and all . That’ll be like the 三分钟热度 thingy . So when you’re like really really angry , furious , agitated , annoyed so on and so forth , don’t let it all out right away . You clench your fist . AND SMASH THAT JERK’S FACE ! kidding kidding . :P You clench your fist and walk away . Then come back when you’re ready , not ready to fight , but ready to clear the mess .
Oh and as I was saying , other bloggers talk about food , the recent news , advertise this and that . And me ? I share my showering experience . ..... In the holy toilet ..... Thinking about ...... Heh .
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