You know my name , not my story (:
Tuesday, September 27, 2011 | 4:58 PM
3 days study break before the start of Eoys . Very stress just thinking about school . Dont really wanna talk about it . :/ Here comes one of those times when i say that sometimes i dont have any feelings or emotions . I'm not in a good mood , or a bad mood . I just sit there , by myself , and think . I overthink sometimes . I think about what has happened , what will happen , and what could have happened . I think about you , i think about what's wrong with my life , i think about how am i gonna get better , i think about how and why i got here in the first place . I think about anything and everything .
Kays , shall stop being GL and blog properly . :) Mugged with Yinyee this morning , she met me upon my special request . Helped me alot and gave me tons of confidence . But i have people telling me , " aiyo so easy de , how come you dunno ? " So sick of people like this who always put me down . Then I have my parents telling me that I don’t know what I’m doing , that I’m gonna screw up and they know it . And some others telling me “ aiya you so smart de cans de la , why you so mugger ? Don’t mug la . ” then they themselves mug more than me and get better results than me . ._. Couldn't be bothered to label this kind of people . And i din mention any names either , so please , dont feel bad . :)
Anyways , i'm glad i've Yinyee to help me this morning . giving me much-needed guidance and support . (L) still very stress and all , but at least now i cans breath abit more smoothly . (Y) andand i'm really glad i've someone who really cares about me , telling me to rest when i should and finding ways to give me support and help me and being understanding and patience with me . thanks sweetest . ♥ I'm so stress , that every time i comb through my hair with my fingers , two or more strands of hair fell out . And i just couldn't kick de bad habit of touching my hair . argh . going bald soon . saw this cute quote just now " if you're stressed , you'll get pimples . if you cry , you'll get wrinkles . so just smile and get dimples . " ♥
Things flying randomly through my mind : One day i will learn ballet . Okays that was random . Argh . An apparent result of over stress . Recently my brother worrying about this performance thingy . Apparently his class have this assignment to perform . And you cans chose to sing , dance or play an instrument . So he chosed to sing ( neither one ishh easy anyways ) and was like having difficulties finding an appropriate song and he began like belting out songs at home , occasionally being off-tune or sometimes singing the wrong lyrics . Being the awesome sister that i am , i tried helping him . .... And apparently failed . LOL . But at least it takes my mind off things for a while . :D Oh how i love having a sibling such as my brother ♥ .
Speaking of hallelujah for siblings , boy was i glad i have friends . :D Yesterday went school with Amy (L) , ( WOOTS A FRIEND ! ♥ )then apparently we went to the Big steps there , " a hot spot in RVHS to have " a cup of tea " with teachers and to mug in a less stress atmosphere compared to the dead silent school library " , and there de tables were like all booked but then we found Shijing (Y) And inside i was like " thank god i have friends :D " *silent tears of gratefulness* This morning too , was going to school alone , and went to the same place . But all tables are again , all taken . T.T Then I found Chenxi (L) . And my heart goes like “ I’m so glad I have friends ! :D ” ... The world ishh so sad if you have no friends . Correction . The world ishh so sad if you have no TRUE friends . :x And here goes me missing my childhood friends . :/
Things flying randomly through my mind : " 要死不死 " . Want die no die . Was doing this scs as i mentioned earlier . ... i did mention right ? :x then we were talking about British healthcare system decades ago , about how the government wants to ensure that the poor are adequately taken care of thus they help to pay everyone's medical-related-stuffs . Initially it was a success , everyone become healthy (Y) . but after a while , people start to abuse the system and those who really needed the treatment , those gonna die but cannot die , need urgent treatment de ended up dying the hard way cause they couldn't receive proper treatment in time . thanks to the other people who dont need treatment but went for treatment anyways ( cause bu nan bai bu nan ) . :x
Such a long post filled with words . :x Dont even know who bothers to read . LOL . idk why but i like to see my posts filled with words . Maybe cause like got sincerity in blogging ? Or maybe cause i just love seeing how much i cans crap .... Love writing chunks of words irl too . Yinyee was like reading my physics notes this morning and said i've a talent in doing notes . (Y) neat and pretty handwriting , and easy to understand . *gloating* ... LOL . easy to understand .... like ... " A dummy's guide to the world of physics " :X
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