I am forced by the passing of time, the transition of life stages, and the expectations of society to grow up and to behave like a "grown-up" (whatever that would constitute). But here, I would just be a little childish, a little self-centered, a little irresponsible, a little too honest but also a little too pretentious.
24, and still counting.
Flashback.
Kept all my past posts intact because my past was what made me, me. Deleting them doesn't change who I am so I revisit my memories sometimes, to learn and to laugh at my past mistakes.
(Just kidding, I revert some posts to drafts because I'm utterly embarrassed.)
And sometimes , we spent all our lives
wanting to be good enough for the one we love , while we din know that in their eyes we already have been perfect . And sometimes , we spent all our lives
having this desperate need for the return of affection , we became blind to what the other had already done for us . And sometimes , we spent all our lives
being afraid of how others will judged us , but forgetting that the one who truly cares wont ever judge you . And sometimes , we spent all our lives
regretting what we said wrong or din say . And sometimes , we spent all our lives
waiting for the other to take the first step that we eventually missed out on each other . And me ? I guess i've been spending all my life waiting for you to come along .
Been looking through some of the courses provided by Polys . And some look so interesting i wish i had a chance to take it myself . Like , ' Psychology & Community Services ' , ' Child Psychology & Early Education ' offered by Ngee Ann Poly , and the ' Psychology Studies ' offered by Temasek Poly , ' Interior Design ' and ' Media and Communication ' from S'pore Poly looks interesting too . Yeah i'm like really into psychology studies ( explains all those weird psychological tests i know of doesn't it ) although this ishh probably the first year i know how to spell psychology properly . :P Gahhhh . Lawls . But , i'm like stuck in RV till my A levels , not that it's THAT bad ... I guess .
I've been writing this Chinese compo for practically a whole month . Had to rewrite it for like two times and this being my third time , i'm like stuck at every word . Wondering , what if , i wrote this word , the whole story kana messed up agains and i'll have to rewrite agains ! So turned off . :/ Topic was what characteristics must a student leader have . Somemore champs was like talking about this last month too . So much easier to write it in english . Even with my vast chinese quotes ( which the teacher complain i anyhow use at random . hahahahaha . ) , i cant seem to make this stupid essay flow . T.T Year 1 year 2 , compo was never below 50 out of 70 , now year 3 , want hit 40 also difficult . Screw it . :/
Things that start with P : Popcorn , Peach , Popsicle , Pork , Potato , Pie , Peas , Powder , Prawn , Peanut , Pizza , Pickle , Plum , Prune , Pepper , Pasta , Pudding , Pears , Promises . You said you trust me . So trust me , that i wont ever hurt you , trust me when i said that i wont leave you , trust me that i'm not like those other girls who played with your heart , for they din know how lucky they were to have you . But i know . I know how lucky i am to get the sweetest guy in the world . I cant promise to love you forever , but i cans promise to love you every single day . Promise ? Promise . ♥ ( Geez . I feel like i'm abusing the word promise or sth . :x )
And i love how you would talk to others about me . Like , you seems so proud of me . And i always wonder what's on your mind when someone mentioned me . Do you smile inside out and does your heart do somersaults like i do ?