I am forced by the passing of time, the transition of life stages, and the expectations of society to grow up and to behave like a "grown-up" (whatever that would constitute). But here, I would just be a little childish, a little self-centered, a little irresponsible, a little too honest but also a little too pretentious.

24, and still counting.




Kept all my past posts intact because my past was what made me, me. Deleting them doesn't change who I am so I revisit my memories sometimes, to learn and to laugh at my past mistakes.

(Just kidding, I revert some posts to drafts because I'm utterly embarrassed.)


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Designed by: Ahting

Was talking about leaders , talking about faith . Why the importance of all that all of a sudden ? Me worried . Seniors step down . And they chose me to be the new SL . Omg right . Why me . Why the time when i feel myself changing , feeling myself closing down , myself cheating reality , my energy melting into nothingness . And now , like a big wave like i cant never subside , it's all coming down to me . I'm scared . I'm very scared . .... But i'll keep my promise to the world that i'll be alright and i'll make everything better than alright . Pray for me will ya . (:

Responsibility ishh like a rock . It cans weigh you down or drag you behind . But after writing so many essays and stories , it's second nature to me now to think that there's two side of a coin to everything . A rock cans be a burden , but at the same time , you cans stand on the rock , looking higher , further . And growing up seems to make you have a third eye or sth , letting you see things from perspectives you've never think about when you're younger . Like a rock , responsibilities cans pull you "down to earth" , making you more sensible , realistic and more level headed . Such board topics that i have totally no mood to touch on today .

School ishh a drag . :/ Maths becoming a problem agains recently . Think i need to go maths remedial agains . Couldn't really grasp the topic at all . And lawls . I cant get the help i use to have ler . Thinking about this makes me wonder how tragic it ishh when people just come and go in your life . Does it works both ways ? Or ishh it always a one sided pain ? Gahhh . feeling very unsettled today , mind keeps wondering around from one topic to another without really getting anything done . :/ Alot on my mind . I just cant put them into words . Oh and P.S , contrary to popular and obvious beliefs , i am not emo-ing tyvm . :)

 ` And i just wanna leave everything behind and watch the world go by ,
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