not my price to pay ,
Wednesday, July 20, 2011 | 10:58 PM
Me tired . (: Quite a stressful week . But all the stressful stuffs over ler . All those crap assignments and geog test (which i think i'll definitely fail) , and Racial Harmony day . Lawls . Abit the pointless actually . The racial harmony day i meant . Different years different programmes . Year 3s were suppose to decorate their classroom according to a certain race and theme , then we present to other classes and visit other classes . P: Mind-wrecking reminiscence of what happened in the old malan campus during International Understanding day . In which it was also very disappointing and boring . :x It's not that we're not into the different race bonding thing but it's just that it's not THAT effective .
We Singaporeans are never racist but we always love a bit of fun . And this thing they put us through ishh more like forced onto us than self exploration , and in what way would it be enjoyable ? Moreover , the whole thing was like very last minute and all the decorations , informations and costume was like done the night before . :x Pity much . Yet , there were still quite a few outstanding classes that ishh very impressive . P: So all in all it was still okays . Nothing to cry about . :) But the thing ishh , we're learning about another race say , Indian , through a different race , Chinese . Dont get me wrong , i believe it's possible , and i think everyone done a great job today , :D but it's like learning about fishes from an ornithologist , if you get what i mean . It's just not the same . So ... did we achieve the goal for this activity in the first place ? It aint about what we done (... or Not done) , or how we've pulled through , and what hallelujah it's like finally over , but it all comes down to what have we gained from all this ? * blank out *
Anyways , that crossword thingy on top ? My first word was 'lovely' , then 'funny' , and 'beautiful' . At first i found it unbelievable , yesh my self-esteem ishh not as high as you think . But then my brother did the test and we both find it quite true after all . No offense , but his first word was 'fat' , then 'sad' , then 'fool' . And he himself agree ishh quite accurate . And i never knew that my brother actually emo alot der . I know i hide alot personally but i din expect my bro to take after me too . ( and of everything , take after my bad side ) :/ Oh well . Anyways , here's me telling you that it's not my loss that we're not together , it's your loss . Nevertheless , i sincerely hope you're happy everyday , :) and i'll still love you , just like how i love die all my crazy act cute friends ♥
Today got caught by Mr Chng for sleeping in class . First period only sia some more . What really upsets me ishh that , he misunderstood me for wanting to sleep in his class . Which ishh so NOT the case . I couldn't help nodding off . Mind really black out in class . During physics and occasionally english , and recently chemistry starting to too . The stuffs and notes i'm doing just suddenly wont get inside my head and my eyelids starting feeling very heavy and i cant help it but start to nod off . I DO TRY VERY HARD TO FIGHT IT OFF . :/ I just dont want anyone to think that i'm lazy or disrespectful or what . Make me feel so wronged and unrecognized for my efforts . :/
Speaking of efforts . Sally was right . After being SL , you'll think about band band band the day before , or if you get it real bad , in my case , the week before . Calling My Eugene (L) almost every other night now just to talk about percussion and double-confirming what i'm doing and stuffs . I really love how he's there for me , and though i know i'm so paranoid i get irritating at times he never shows it and still pei me talk and never hang up till i make the first move to say bye . AWWWW ♥ Anyways , school de NDP coming . Very stressed cause i'm a freaking green horn and had Zile and Sally not be there on Tuesday i would have had a heart attack and died . Was like so lost but still trying to look confident . Lawls . 3 CHEERS FOR SENIORS (Y) . Hope you liked the tee , i love it sia ! :x
Many a times i would love to figure out what you're thinking . Who you're putting first . You love me ? Or her ? Or youself . Then after a while i gave up , thinking i'm thinking too much . But after a split second , i started thinking all over agains . Well , whoever that say girls are more complicated than guys apparently haven't met you .
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