big or small , lies are lies ,
Monday, July 4, 2011 | 4:05 PM
Was discussing RV people with Amy the other day . Well , maybe not only that day , but well , we were talking . Talking . Not . Gossiping . I repeat . NOT gossiping . (: Even if we do wanna gossip , i've nothing to say cause i'm not updated with RV stuffs blahhblahh and Amy ishh new . But that stupid girl , yesh i've just downgraded you to the same level as that amphibian for this current moment cause i'm upset with you , bu anyways , as i was saying , that stupid girl was digging out my secrets and my past (agains) , which led me to recall back a lot of stuffs . SO yeah . This ishh a blog post dedication . (:
Charmaine (L)
Well , this ishh partly your birthday message too yeah . :x Of everyone , i think i owe you the most favors . ( i think this ishh a much repeated point ) Although i feel very distanced from you now , i know that in times of need , i cans still count on you . Idk why , although i never do anything for you , like , i din have time for you , and when i text i replied slow and gives retarded one word msg ( which i realise i seem to be doing to my closer friends . lawls . haish . ) you never stop believing in my love for you . I guess that's what good about friends from your childhood eh ?
We came such a long way , we got so used to having each other in our lives , ( even if it doesn't mean being right beside , ) i know you're out there and you SHOULD KNOW that i'm out here for you . Of everyone i know , including myself , i know your life better than i know mine . Idk it in the i feel it , gone through it myself way , but i know what you've to go through , how you are much better than the rest even if others cant see it . Although it seems like i'm giving excuses for you somethings , i know that many a times , you cant help it . You cans be ....
A Tree . You din chose to be there , someone plant you there , but you still stood strong against the many storms that blow against you . You kept silent , you bury your pain in your roots , but the many incident and hurts scar you , inward and outward . As a tree , you were never hollow , you're filled with many colourful emotions . Like a tree , you stood there , never really closely studied by others , but you stood there and grew and hold your talents and secret save within you . Like a tree , you provided shade for others along the way , your friends , from the little "insects" around to the humans who walked by , you gave what you cans which we took for granted .
If you are the tree and God let me chose what to be , i'll be the wind . Constantly by your side . I would like to be , a gentle breeze . Maybe you wont be able to see me , but i cans watch you grow . Dance in the leaves of your trees , listen to the secrets you wish to share and blow your pain out of you . And then , i'll have all the time in the world to make sure you're save . If any dangers try to threaten you , i would be a roaring wind , blowing them , preventing them from uprooting you .
But you see , i'm not the wind and you're not a tree , so we have to take life as it ishh to be . But even if you're not a tree , never forget that you are solid like one . Solid like how my love ishh for you . People change , and maybe my love for you change too , but nevertheless . ILY no matter what . (L)
Your birthday message : " Every year , every day , i want you to never regret your day . Happy belated birthday . "
Went to Queensway yesterday with Kellie . A kinda last minute plan cause actually i wanted to camp at home der . STH that i will remember FOR LIFE . So we went onto the bus tgt , and she had her hands full and cannot hold onto any poles so she went to a corner of the bus to camp . Then i stood at the door , silently thinking i'm a obstacle in the bus that was filled with oh so many people . We were suppose to either get off at the next stop or the next next and , thinking we have amazing telepathy , we din agree on what stop to get off first . So i went off at the next stop , ONLY TO TURN AROUND and find her laughing at me in her that little corner ! and i got off at a very ulu place , hence , looking like a retard . HALLELUJAH ! GRRRRR .
We dropped by at the old RV campus for a while too . Stunned by the many changes there . Rmb all the memories people tell me about , all the moments i lived there . Emotional much stuffs . :x But when i was studying there , i din go out much with my group of friends from school . I choose to go out with you . So , when everyone else socialize , i was there lying in your bed , spending what i thought would be my whole life with you . Lawls . Some days i regret not going out with other friends more , but some days , days like this , i wish you're still here with me . :/
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