someone of my own ,
Saturday, June 18, 2011 | 2:04 PM
Been a week since i last posted . Actually wanted to create a new blog and leave this behind but then , not really any significant happening for me to do so . And well , i realise i cant let go of all those memories . Anyways , been a very learning week . Almost everyday for the past week , i learn something new , had a new experience , or see a new place . ( and no i didn't really had much progress with my homework ) :x
Been doing this confession thingy on fb . Found out , and rmb things i thought i forgot while trying to rack my brains for confessions , for stuffs people din know , or might never guess about me . For the past year , i haven't really say things from the bottom of my heart , or deep in my mind online anymore . I was afraid of what i let slip , of what i dont want people to know , whether here on Blogger or on Facebook . As i grow up , i became more aware of my audiences , of who's judging me .
I realise with regrets that , though once upon a time , i will hang out with anyone who felt like fun or friendly , heck caring the rumors and occasionally their horrible attitude , i too , have became one of those type of people i hate , those people who wont be friends with just anyone . Those people who chose and pick their circle of friends , hoping to protect their heart and themselves from possible pains from others who might hurt myself .
And so today , i reflect and change . I shall no longer push others away from me , and be with them , cause i like their company , and not cause i want someone to take away my loneliness and cause i want to be able to accept everyone unconditionally around me agains . I really want to be a better me . And i do try , you'll see . :)
Been to Malaysia . First time meeting my baby cousin who was born earlier this year in January . Cant help loving him . But after my granny of cause . (L) . I'm proud to say , that as i get older , i start to help out more with the housework and the cooking when i go to my granny's house . Had you seen me at my granny's house 2 years ago , i would be slacking in the living room , watching shows after shows , disc after disc , changing channels after channels , waiting for people to call me for meals , or going out to play .
But when i went back this time , i began helping out . Taking care of the baby , washing the dishes after lunch ( a huge achievement mind you . :P usually my granny's cooking made me so blissfully full i just want to go and slack at the sofa , which i've always been doing . well , till now ) , preparing the meals , looking after the baby , washing my own clothes ( hand wash ! ) etc . Maybe i'm trying to act guai in front of the baby ? haha . no . Cause i've come to see , what others have been doing for me . Taking care of me without complaints and i want to start doing my part . Er well ... bit by bit . :x
And the thing ishh , i do enjoy helping around the house . Esp spending time with my granny in the kitchen . Apparently , it makes her more happy than seeing me gorging down her food . And it makes me really happy too . Spending all those time with her . Though i'm like making things worse than helping . :x And looking after the baby , i learnt to be more careful . The baby ishh like real fragile ( oh and did i mention adorable ? ) and he'll really takes up alot of your attention . My favourite things about babies ishh their smile , after their tiny hands and feet . ARGH . i'm so jealous of his tiny hands !
16th June (Thursday) - Percussion bbq ,
The second bbq i have in my 15 long tiring years of life on Earth . Yesh . Yours truly ishh tremendously good at exaggerating . But nevertheless , it's a fact . :P and this time , being the organizer of this really last minute thing , i was really happy that i went and that i made it happen . ... though idk if the others feel that it was as good as i felt .
Tried bonding with the year 1s and it was very .... trying . Seems like a long year ahead after the year 4s step down , which ishh a big worry ( referring to the year 4s stepping down , not the bonding with the year 1s . .... yet ) the year 1s seem reluctant to open up to the rest of the perc and idk why . :/ And sadly , not everyone went . So hopefully it'll be better next year . And i really do hope that the juniors will love taking photos more . It's very turn-off-ish that they dont like to camwhore .
BBQ was at Cassandra's condo , her awesome ttm parents helped us set up the pit and thanks to them it was very successful . First time in my memory cooking at the pit and hell was it exhausting . Good learning experience , and i think i DO have a talent in everything i do ! :D not the genius those type like , try once perfect but those GENUINE TALENTS , like , everything you try you cans do it right . Maybe not perfect but generally acceptable . Okays , shall stop my ego growing .
Eventful friday . :) Had AL test in the morning . Was panicking about it the night before . Felt like pon-ing at the last minute . But i decided to go in the end , cause i decided that even if i were to display and humiliate myself with my ignorance , i cans take this as a learning experience instead . And learn i did . Had drills in the morning . ALs were suppose to take the drills . When asked to volunteer , i did want to at a time , but idk why i had this feeling that i dont the the right to . Which ishh my biggest weakness i think . Another big mistake was taking antibiotic without taking breakfast . Guess i dont have to say more .
After leaving school , met up with Amy(L) and Gladys(L) to go shopping . Or so we thought . Had lunch at KFC before going to pierce my ear ( random crave ) then had a hard decision of where to go . In the end went marina barrage . First time being there . If only the weather was less sunny , everything would have been so much more perfect . Speaking of perfect , if i get to buy that singlet i saw at JP , then , THAT would have really been perfection . Haha . Really love going out with Au and Geeladys . Things that dont seem funny usually , suddenly seems hilarious . ♥
Oh and before i forgot , this ishh something that i want to rmb for life . As a reminder of how silly Amy cans be . Apparently , she know of this game in which you slap the person if he or she laughs , and if you yourself laugh , he or she cans slap you . So , the more you laugh , the more you're slapped , and the more you're slapped , the more you laugh . Well , until you get pissed of course . But idk why , at that time , the idea was so hilarious we couldn't stop laughing . LOL !
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