and i'll do anything to forget you ,
Sunday, May 15, 2011 | 7:47 PM
Just three short days and so many happenings . Let's start with the day right after i last blog . Friday . So the whole day , i was getting wayyyy excited about surprising Fengxian with his belated birthday surprise and my Sally , Wanzhen and Shiqi ( who was unfortunately unable to make it ) with another secret surprise and they themselves gave me another surprise instead . TSK . So about their surprise first .
Beloved seniors nominated me for ALs . Along with it come many roller coasters of emotions . First , the pride and honor . Being someone who put running away as option A when met with problems , and a well-known weakness of mine at that , i was ultimately surprised that i was still given a chance at this . And the thing is , i know i cant play . Given another time , another place , i would gladly take up the job with embracing arms . But this is my band . It concerns my percussion . And hell , i dont wanna mess it up agains . For we really been through alot together , now that i think about it . But the thing ishh how can i be a leader when i cant even play my own part well ? And in comes the second feeling , fear and stress . Moreover , i hurt my left hand ( my weaker hand omg ) during the very first 3J class outing ( top picture ) and now it hurts . :/ But anyways , i cant play . I'm improving at a snail's speed ! And i AM improving uhh . My piano teacher said so today too . I could pitch better in oral , able to sightread with less pauses and more confident in my playing compared to once upon a time . But i dont think i cans catch up . ... Darn all this pessimistic thinking . But anyways , there comes the conflict with my dad who thinks this ishh so gonna be a waste of time . Which i beg to differ after some seriously serious thinking .
In conclusion , i'm going to try my best at this , and learn and learn and self-improve . I dont expect much , but i'm gonna try my best at doing it right . :D
And now , the surprises i made for my perc doughnuts . Apparently it was Fengxian's birthday on Wed . But since all birthdays that we celebrated before was unique in their own way , and i've come short onto ideas so i decided to surprise him instead . So we pretended that we forgot about his birthday and made no mention about it at all to him , though i told everyone that we're gonna celebrate his birthday , i told him instead that i'm going to surprise the seniors , mainly welcoming Wanzhen (L) back into perc and thanking Sally and Shiqi the hard work they've put in for us during the SYF period ( kinda belated yeah ) . But anyways , the point ishh , i'm ever so proud to say that i manage to surprise EVERYONE ( other than Sarah whom i told the everything to ) with all the gifts i've prepared and everything . I really liked it and enjoyed myself tremendously , esp that huge sense of pride that i manage to pull it off . :D
But the most important thing ishh , i want my Perc to know that i love them i really do . For without knowing it themselves , they have helped to taken my mind off things when i needed them the most . ( i think i said it like ever so many times before )
Along came saturday . After having a quarrel with my dad about coming home late late after the Perc dinner , then quarrel again for my taking part in the AL thing , so when i asked for permission to go class outing , it was a expected and definite no . BUT this time , i din gave up and i asked again on saturday itself . And i managed to convince my dad to allow me to go the next day morning ! (Y) And it took a lot of convincing mind you . :P
So expect a blue moon soon for i went to a class outing ! (Y) Went to Sentosa's Palawan Beach . Hope i had a nice tan . Got a broken left hand though . :/ So the guys played soccer , and we girls tried to be a good sport ( for like , 20 minutes plus ) and being a competitive Capricorn , i retardedly tried to act macho and block the ball with my hand and BANGG , my left hand took the bulk of the force and now it's like , pain die . ( Did i mention that i had piano today ? And my hand was like , dead and unable to react cause i over strain my hand after awhile with all those chords and running notes ) But nevertheless , i had fun , well , more fun then solo emo at home anyways , cause we had like a lack of bonding activities and i din really plan on what to do , only planned on how to be able to go . Lawls . :x but anyways , i'm glad i went , cause i get to see that cute and shuai guy ! KIDDING . I'm glad i went and din miss out all the fun and had a chance to see my class guy's being gay and oh-so-cuteeeeeeee ! ♥
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