I am forced by the passing of time, the transition of life stages, and the expectations of society to grow up and to behave like a "grown-up" (whatever that would constitute). But here, I would just be a little childish, a little self-centered, a little irresponsible, a little too honest but also a little too pretentious.

24, and still counting.




Kept all my past posts intact because my past was what made me, me. Deleting them doesn't change who I am so I revisit my memories sometimes, to learn and to laugh at my past mistakes.

(Just kidding, I revert some posts to drafts because I'm utterly embarrassed.)


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Designed by: Ahting

And again , i proved to myself that i am stronger than i think . Guess it's not the end of the world , when you lost everything , the pillar of support / "cornerstone" in your life , you just have to built or find another stronger and better one yourself , and hold it there for as long as you cans . And i realised , that's what i've been doing all this while . Buying my time .

Classes have been horrible . Been going to school earlier recently , for i like the quiet solitude in the class before everyone arrives . But waking up that early means i've less energy for the rest of the day , so recently falling asleep in class . And quite a few teachers already express their displeasure at my lack of concentration . Today being the Geography teacher , was caught sketching in class today and wasn't really able to answer his questions properly . Idk why , i'm in the wrong , but at the moment i felt so stubborn that i gave him the black face . And i think it made him seriously pissed . Cause previously he caught me using fone in class then very bu shuang already . But now i still like that . I hate my attitude .

Ytd had NAPFA . Like shit like that . I've always been proud to say that i've gotten a gold for NAPFA every year , but apparently not this year le . Ytd de 5 stations started with pull-ups , then i think i wasn't doing it right , so the teacher started screaming into my ear and totally not counting for like , even though i did like 5 or something already he counted 2 only , then in the end i got pissed with his horrible attitude (unbelieveably worse than mine) . And according to his counting , i did 9 only . If i've done one more , i could have gotten a C and get Gold sia . Cause all the other stations (excluding 2.4km run which i got C) i got A already . I'm really upset . For the fact that he wont even consider gving me a secong chance .

Recently Cca came to a halt . And i tried to take this opportunity to heal my heart . Lawls . I really dont wanna bring all the bad emotions to band when it starts agains . And during this time , i found my new love , shopping . ♥ Went to hardcore window shop recently with Amy (L) , while i tried to open up at the same time . In the process , i realise that i really hide too much on the outside . I laughed , with tears in my eyes . I play , with a hole in my heart . I smiled , despite the pain . Sometimes , it makes me wonder , if i dont say anything , am i lying ?

Oh and before i end , i confess that i've found another new hobby too . I'm starting to love playing running notes on my piano and strike random chords . I love playing chords , for i love the sound of the notes harmonizing . ... Though i really should go tune my piano soon .
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